Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Tukang Bohong!

Dear you,

You're a big liar!


Karna kmu selalu bilang, kmu ga romantis.
So how come you waited and waited for me, just to have our late chat under the moon?

Kamu bilang, kmu ga romantis.

but you gave me surprises all the time..
showing up at EF, at the airport, at my door..
you showed up everywhere!

with a single red rose.
Another time with a bouquet of them.

and chocolates.
and dinner with the city lights.
and you gave compliments, even when I'm still in my pajamas.

and still, kamu bilang kamu ga romantis,

but you said the L word every single day.

Dan kamu masih bisa bilang kamu ga romantis?

You're a bad liar. :)


and by the way, i L you too. ;)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I love Axioo!

If you are one of my closest friends, you'll probably already know that I'm not planning on getting married. At least not in 5-7 years from now. But I adore photography. And in this case, pre-wedding photographs.

This is my favorite so far. If I ever have one It'll probably look more or less like this.

I love Axioo! Sayang mahal nya gila-gilaan. =P They have an exhibition down at Plaza Indonesia, Jakarta

Visit axioo.com if you're curious. ;)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Feeling like sh*t? Be glad about it! ;)

Around 4 months ago, I was introduced to a very nice and inspiring woman.
The first thing about her which amaze me was, she's 25 and she's juggling her education and work everyday. And not just any ordinary work, she's a program director at Prambors Radio Semarang. Keren banget yah?

But this is what she said, "Lo pikir enak, jadi model terkenal? Jadi bos besar perusahaan paling sukses di Indonesia? Jadi dokter bedah paling laris? Ga segampang yang kita kira lho.. Semua pekerjaan yang terlihat keren tuh sebenernya kalo dijalanin rasanya kayak t** tau.."

Dunno why but sampe sekarang kalimat itu terus yang gw inget tiap gw lagi down; bahwa semua kerjaan keren butuh perjuangan, dan kalo sekarang gw banyak pikiran, stress dan ngerasa kayak t**, itu artinya... gw lagi keren-keren nya! ;D


Monday, September 28, 2009

Ever Ever After

Ariel. Cinderella. Snow White. Aurora. Jasmine. Belle. Mulan.
As a young girl, I grew up watching, loving, and got deeply inspired by their stories. Now I'm more than excited by the news that Disney will soon release a new 2D-Princess-Movie this year! :D

wishing you a happily ever after,

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


This game, I'll win it.
I'll do it my way
Never gonna bend or change it for anything.
Not for you, not for them.
I'm playing it my way and I'll win this game.

You are my present,
but I make my own future.

Once upon a September,

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Kisah Kasih di..

Cowok : *duduk di sebelah gw, pelan-pelan ngulurin tangan ngajak kenalan*
Gw : *senyum, ngulurin tangan juga*
Cowok : *menyebutkan namanya*
Gw : Saya Tessa, Mas.
Cowok : Ooh... Cantik. *senyum2 malu2*
Gw : eh? Kenapa Mas?
Cowok : *nunduk, makin senyum2 malu2* Gapapa... Cantik.
Gw : Oh. Eh, makasih.. hehe.

Kalo di film-film, ini adalah awal dari kisah cinta romantis ber-ending happily ever after.

But in reality, ini terjadi di bangsal Rumah Sakit Jiwa, dengan tokoh utama seorang coass muda dan pasiennya.

Semoga kamu cepat sembuh, mas. :)


Saturday, August 8, 2009

Yasmin Ahmad's Brilliant Works.

This video was directed by Yasmin Ahmad, and also one of the most inspiring, touching, heart-warming TV commercials I've ever seen.

I found a Behind The Scene video for "Funeral", where she had talked about the main idea of the well-known commercial.

She had said that it's a common global disease that people are reluctant to get married, because we tend to search for perfections on our partners or, for some, have the desire to become perfect. (ini gw banget, hahaha)
Well, guess what?
"Somebody actually love you for your imperfections, isn't that great? It could only happen with family." she said.

Another one of my favorites is her Tan Hong Ming's Love.

Yasmin Ahmad (July 1, 1958 - July 25, 2009) was a critically-acclaimed multi-award winning film director, writer and scriptwriter from Malaysia and was also the executive creative director at Leo Burnett Kuala Lumpur.


Sunday, August 2, 2009


I think I'm cursed.

Ngga deng. Hehe.

But seriously! Ada satu hal yang terus menerus terjadi dalam hidup gw sejak jaman dulu kala.
Again and again. And again.
and again.

Jadi ceritanya, ada seseorang, sebut saja Kumbang (bukan nama sebenarnya)... Err.. jangan kumbang deh, secara orang ini one of my VIP, so.. ayo kita cari nama yang bagusan dikit.

Lee Donghae?

ah sudahlah.

Taufik. Namanya Taufik.

Gw biasa memanggil dia 'Kak' or sometimes 'si kakak'

Yak lanjut.
Si kakak ini bakal pulang ke Semarang seminggu lagi, setelah ngejalanin kompre (kayak KKN gitu) selama 2 bulan di Pemalang yang serasa 2 tahun. (Lebay deng, 1 bulan pertama dia pulang tiap minggu, so.. biasa aja. hehehe.) TAPI oh tapi.. Selesai kompre berarti dia udah selangkah lg menuju wisuda dokter bulan Oktober nanti. Which means.. he's moving back to Jakarta.

Which also means.. another long-freakin-distance relationship for me.

Now you understand why I think I'm cursed, right?
I almost always end up being in this kind of situation.
LDR, that is.

Apa ada yang pernah gw sakitin trus nyumpahin gw yah?
*yeah mantan-mantanku, silakan tertawa sepuasnya.
hehehe ngga deng. apa kabar kalian semua? :)*

Well anyway, ada satu (dari beberapa) hal POSITIF yang gw dapet dari having a long distance relationship : layaknya bank, gw jadi lebih Mandiri.
Serius, itu satu hal yang gw syukurin banget. :)

Gw ngga akan se-independen sekarang kalo gw ngga sering terjebak dalam keadaan pengen-ditemenin-pacar-tapi-dia-jauh-amat-yah-yaudah-ah-mau-gmana-lagi-masa-gini-doang-ga-bisa-dikerjain-sendiri.

Dan masih banyak hal positif lainnya sih. And the negative ones? Ngga usah disebutin lah ya, everybody knows long distance sucks. =P

In conclusion I think there are always gonna be the down side and great side about everything. Tergantung kitanya aja mau ngeliat dari sisi yang mana. Ya ga sih. ;)


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

this could be infatuation
or another temporary adoration

this could be nothing
or everything

people dreamed of this,
talk about this,
yearning to have this,

this thing between us.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

48 kilograms.

These pictures were taken about a week ago, and it made me realize something.

I'm not skinny anymore.

Or is it just because I was standing beside my slim and (very) tall younger brother?

Well, either way, I don't really care. ;)

To me, life's too short to hurt ourselves with any unreasonable diet.

Do you agree?


Tuesday, June 30, 2009


you never said goodbye
someone tell me why
did you have to go
and leave my world so cold?

everyday I sit and ask myself
how did love slips away
something whispers in my ears and say

you are not alone.

Rest in peace, Michael.


photo source: product-reviews.net

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Should I Follow?

After 6 years of playing with Friendster,
2 years of Facebooking around,
plus killing time with MySpace, Multiply, Hi5, Zorpia and a few others I eventually neglect,
now I'm considering about making a twitter account.

I probably won't update my status much, personally I think the world doesn't need to know what time did I woke up this morning nor how I spend my Saturday evening. (In case you're pretty curious, you may find the answer by asking si comel facebook anyway. =P)

The only reason I wanted an account is because I wanna follow her.

She's one of my long time role model. I've been adoring this super-smart down-to-earth beautiful young woman ever since I saw her sitting on a couch with Oprah, talking about Women Rights, Education, Islam and What It Is Like To Be A Queen.

Recently, she also stated that tweeting can help change the world.

So, should I make a twitter account? Dilema, dilema.

Have A Nice Weekend, Everyone! :)

photo source: daylife.com

Friday, June 19, 2009


Your eyes, oh I know they're questioning.
You're steady
But silently searching.

And I keep on hiding
my heart, my feeling

You're looking
Oh I know you need answers
But I keep on hiding

Because I'm scared

Because then you'll know

you'll see



Yah Gitu Deh.

Found this in one of my old diaries.

"Ya Allah,
jadikanlah air mata ini,
pemadam api nerakaMu
bagi orang-orang yang aku cintai
di akhirat nanti."

Originally written March 2009.

That was me, trying to be positive.
But I can't remember what I was crying about. =P

Come to think of it, I sound quite devastated then, don't I?
But I am fine right now.
Yes, time heals, I guess.



Oh this is confusing.

I wanted to write something
something else instead of the warmth that I'm feeling.
Something more than his gaze that keeps on haunting.

Oh I just wanted to write something.
Something else,

anything else
but him.

One month is too fast
but i can't help it, I'm falling.

June 2009.


Another Seven Days In Sunny June

I can't stop laughing at my bestfriend Chika's status a few days ago:

Ashry Chika Aradilla : wahai teman2 semester 8 bertobatlah kalian sebelum di tobatkan.. hahaha mau jadi Dokter seperti apa klo kerjaan kita cuma sulapan, bikin rusuuh acara orang, nonton konser, jalan2 dan karaoke doank?? hahaha

And yes, Chika's words are so true.

Like, seriously. This week I :
spent the whole day with my besties : wondering around Kota Lama and dancing the night away at Maliq & d'essentials' show.
took a swim. a warm bath. a blow-dry at a beauty salon. dinner with friends. and on-on pub afterwards.
clean my room up. *surprise, surprise*
went window shopping ice cream licking burger eating with another bestie Lita, and then another Karaoke Nite.
oh i have an exam on wednesday.
took a drive to Gunung Pati. Had loads of fun despite the fact that we got kinda lost. ;P
did the pbl project. *tumben ga ada ke-hedon-an hari ini*

Can't help but to think, Di fakultas lain anak semester 8 nya kayak gini juga ga ya? :)

Anyway, I don't know about you guys, but I have a feeling that someday -and maybe soon enough- we're gonna miss those magic-tricking hard-playing concert-attending karaoke-ing days.

Yes I am quite certain that we're gonna miss it so bad.

Well, come what may, I will always love you, 2005.

"So baby let's get it on
Drinkin wine
and killing time
Sitting in the summer sun."

Jamiroquai - Seven Days In Sunny June


Thursday, June 4, 2009


I seriously think every girl alive should read Dea's note about this book.
Or if you saw the book, buy it, read it, and then can I borrow it?

oh and there's a movie based on it, too. Dapatkan di counter-counter DVD bajakan kesayangan anda. ;D



Two days ago Kak Opie & Kak Ria were ecstatic about a movie called cin(T)a.
I looked for it, and found this:

1:03 gives me the shivers.

"This is a story of a love triangle between
Cina (the boy), Annisa (the girl),
and Tuhan (God).

Cina and Annisa love God
and God loves them both
But Cina and Annisa cannot love each other
because they call God by different names"

Honestly, can't wait to watch it. :))


Incoming call.
Halo. Kamu dimana? Udah selesei les nya?
Udah, ini baruu aja keluar kelas. Knp?
Oh yaudah, cuma mau ngingetin, kamu pulangnya ati-ati yah.
Iyah, yauda ya.. Dadah..

Yaelah. Gitu doang? Basa-basi dikit kek.. 'mau aku jemput ga?' atau apa kek.

Trying not to think of it, I shoved my phone into my bag and walked across the parking lot, towards the gate, whilst deciding what to take : a taxi, an angkot, or a walk? And as I took a step to cross the busy street, the wind delivered a shout of my name.


I couldn't believe my eyes. He was there, standing before me as I turned around.
Yuk, pulang. he said, grinning. Puas banget kayanya dia ngeliat tampang kaget gw.

Yeah I know it's corny for some people. Especially those of you who are not in love. But I can't help it, I have to share this feeling with someone otherwise I might explode. =))

And what is this feeling that I'm feeling?
It could be,
might be something big.
Or not.
Either way,
it felt great.


Sunday, May 31, 2009

Everybody Loves Revenges.

"I read this line somewhere : The best revenge is living well. Meaning, live your life successfully and that person whom you're having revenge on, is definitely losing.

I lived by that rule for a while.

But about a week ago, I realized that, to me, The Best Revenge Is Not Having One At All. I don't want to waste my time plotting, scheming, or just praying for the other person to fall apart. Berhasil membuat damai dirimu sendiri, that's what i call pure victory.

Hey you, I genuinely want you to be happy.
Yeah, you've guessed it, i think. "

Originally written on September 16th, 2008.


Thursday, May 21, 2009

Another Favorite Quote :)

Sometimes the measure of friendship isn't your ability to not harm
but your capacity to forgive the things done to you and ask forgiveness for your own mistakes.

-Aswin Sastrowardoyo.


Monday, May 18, 2009

I love..

1. her.

2. my new blue converse-shaped necklace. Actually, I'm in love with oversized necklaces in general. :D

3. the quote : Nothing Will Work Unless You Do, by Maya Angelou.

4. the latest, and of course another hilarious, nigahiga video.

5. this movie.

6. The walk we took this morning. It was my first time ever, walking to campus with.. well, a special someone. *blushing-like-mad mode: ON

7. Es Nyonya Besar, chocolate flavor. If you live in Semarang, you can find it in Gratia Minimarket near Karyadi Hospital. *yea yea promosi, siapa tau dapet diskon =P

8. reading about him

9. Francais. Oui, je vous manque. Can't wait for wednesday! ;)

10. Chika's Blog. Oh I simply love her.

11. Cactus! Me and my kostmates have 5 cactuses on our dining table. I'm thinking about giving them names. Any ideas? ;)

Have A Nice Week, everyone! ;D

Wednesday, May 6, 2009


"Remember the story of a girl who had everything
and still wanted everything else?
Yeah she end up having nothing."


*melakukan curhat
special thanx to mba tinton. ;)

Friday, May 1, 2009

Nineties Madness.

Went karaoke-ing again with my friends last night. For the THIRD time in ONE week! *oh yeah kami banci tampil semua*
Anyway, lately I realized that we tend to sing a lot of 90s song. (For God's sake sometimes it made me feel kinda old. =P )
Here are some of those songs I'm referring to:

1. Barbie Girl - Aqua
2. Inikah Cinta - ME
3. ANY Backstreet Boys' song
4. Bukan Pujangga - Base Jam
5. ANY Spice Girls' song
6. Kerinduanku - AB three
7. ANY song by Westlife
8. Always be my baby - Mariah Carey
9. Mungkinkah - Stinky

And many, yes many many, more.

Come and sing a long! x)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

First Day in First Aid

Monday, April 20th 2009
Kelas Pertolongan Pertama Pada Gawat Darurat.

Gw : *siap-siap mau ngasih pernafasan buatan*
Duta : eh Tes!
Gw : knp Dut?
Duta : Gapapa.... Jangan pake lidah ya!
Gw : yaiyalah emang apaan!!
Duta : Hahahaha...

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Choose Carefully.

Love this interactive youtube video thingy.
Yes, I've tried every possible ending. I'm such an Internet freak, aren't I? =P

Come to think of it.. What would it be if in real life, we could rewind and change our decision whenever we bump into a sad ending?

Well.. In my opinion it'd probably be a nice regret-less world to live in.

But a boring one, too.

We need risk of having regrets to make us appreciate every opportunities, don't you think? :)

Anyway try it! And good luck! ;D


Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Capricorns and their Comfort Zones.

I'm pretty sure there aren't any teenage girl in this whole wide world who has never read her horoscope in a magazine. Kalo gw sih, kalo bagus dipercaya, kalo ngga ya bodo amat. Hehehe.

Let see what Capricorns will encounter this month!

According to GoGirl! Magazine:

Ayo tambah teman sebanyak-banyaknya.
Well, I’ve been spending time with lots of long lost friends lately. I hope that counts. ;)

Tabungan meningkat!
Yea right. There’s a slight chance, but ’m a big spender, so.. *shrugs*

Bingung antara bertahan dengan comfort zone status kamu yang single atau harus berubah.
No comment. Hahahaha.

Perbanyak olahraga dan perhatikan ya apa yang kmu makan
Apa yang gw makan? Jamur, lekker, chicken cordon blue, bread talk, chocolate covered strawberries.. not exactly what you’d consider as healthy food, aren’t they? xP

A trip or a relationship with a foreigner will give you lots of benefits.
Hmm.. Had an interview with an EF teacher, Neil from Scotland, yesterday. Lots of benefits? Amin.

Hari baik : Rabu
..which is today! Yay!

Warna : Hijau muda.
Err this is weird. I’m wearing green this very moment.

Have a great long weekend!!! xD


Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Triprolidine Never Tastes Better.

I had it there, I had it then
thought it'd wait
thought it stayed
thought there's nothing else to mend

I was sure, no.. I had hope
Believed there's nothing it couldn't cope
Regrets? maybe a slight
But then, I won all the fights
so why bother?

We were snobs, promising forever
to each other
Oh how I wish that very word would stop linger

Friday, January 23, 2009

Asian Madness

I'm currently in love with Asian tv dramas. Especially Japanese & Korean ones. But of all the dramas I've ever watched, nothing (not even the legendary Meteor Garden, Hero, Full House, or Princess Hours).. i repeat, nothing beats this one.

Click here if you're curious.
And yeah.. I've watched it for like ONE THOUSAND times already.. xP

Duluu yang beliin si Mamah, sempet bingung gitu dia waktu ngeliat covernya "Kamu mau beli dvd tentang Ice Hockey? Emang kmu ngerti??"
But Da recommended it to me, actually (ya, ya, trimakasih, Da..), dia kan dulu sok-sok gondrong Takuya Kimura wannabe gitu. Tapi lumayan ganteng deng (yaiyalah, pacarnya siapa dulu). Anyway skarang malah gw yang Kimutaku-dorama mania gini..

Udah ah, mau nonton lagi. ;D


Saturday, January 10, 2009

Overdose Happiness*

My alarm woke me up at 1 AM this morning. I glanced at my cdma phone, expecting missed calls and messages.

1 message in Inbox.

what? only one? Percaya deh, gw sempet sedih. Masa pada ga inget sih.. then I realize, I had turned off my GSM phone all night. I reached for it, turned it on.. and voila!

1 Message.. 2 message.. and another one.. and another one... and another one.. well, u get the picture. ;)

Yes, it's my birthday today.

("You're finally legal to drink!", a friend of mine said. Hehe)

Da was the first one who called me. Wait, actually it was Metty, and a few others, who mistakenly congratulate me on the 7th. ;P

I feel awesome today! Super Duper Ultra Hyper Extra Awesome! And it's not even 4 o'clock yet. ;D

Reading those comments, message, sms.. answering those calls.. I feel like a little girl showered with gifts & flowers.
The perfect gift for me? Well I love prayers. They're more than enough for me. :)

I've been trying to reply each and every one of them but I have 2 exams and 1 wedding to attend today.. aaa so many things to do! hehehe. Jadi blom semuanya kebaless.. bahkan blom semuanya kebaca.. Haaa.. Maaf yah.. Promise to reply soon! :)

Okay, back to work.


A gift from intan, mo dimakan sayang. =P

*I can't remember where I got this term. I stole it from somebody, probably him/her blog or something. If you're reading this, gw pinjem yah. ^^