Saturday, November 27, 2010

A Glimpse of Love

..adalah ketika di sela-sela
24 jam tugas jaganya di rumah sakit,

dia menemukan sedikit waktu istirahat,
untuk sejenak melepas penat

tapi bukannya dipakai untuk tidur...

dia lebih memilih


menelpon aku.


Friday, November 19, 2010

Monday, November 15, 2010

the Money Story

Isn't it heartbreaking that money is often the source of every problems,
and at the same time,
the answer to most of them?

"Kenapa ga berobat dari dulu Pak?"
"Ga ada biaya, dok."
"Kenapa ga pernah kontrol Pak?"
"Ga ada biaya, dok."

"Sebelum bicara sendiri seperti ini, di rumah ada masalah apa Pak?"
"Dia kepengen sekolah tapi..... ga ada biaya, dok."


"Why didn't you come to the hospital sooner?"
"We didn't have any money, doc."
"Why didn't you come for the routine check ups?"
"We didn't have any money, doc."
"Before he started talking to himself like this, does he have any problems at home, Sir?"
"Well, he wanted to go to school but..... we didn't have any money, doc."

Bagi gw, ini stase yang paling bikin hati miris.

One gloomy day,

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

The Social Network

Ten years ago I wouldn't know who Mark Zuckerberg is.
But on 2004, he did something that changed the world.
Including mine.
And probably yours, too.

Good Lord I seriously can't wait to watch this.


Thursday, September 30, 2010

Did you know?

Girls make up 70 percent of the world’s 125 million out-of-school youth.
One in seven girls in the developing world marries before the age of 15.
In developing countries, most girls never receive a check-up or see a doctor.

Let's make a difference.


For Girls, By Girls.


Tuesday, September 28, 2010

22 PM

There's got to be more to life than just chasing dreams after dreams,
racing towards goals after goals.
Maybe that's why God created the ultimate finish line : Heaven.


Sunday, September 26, 2010

I heart IKEA

I'm one of those girls who love furniture as much as guys love porn.

And to me,
Ikea in the furniture world, is like Apple in the tech world.
They both produce stunningly adorable products.

If these were Indonesian buses, instead of Ikea-designed Russian and Japanese subway cars, I'd stop taking cabs or any other vehicle. ;)

Click here for the 2011 Singapore IKEA Catalog.


Friday, August 20, 2010

How To Treat A Sprained Ankle

I've learned something this past few days : Do NOT take anything for granted, especially your health.

Three days ago I was preparing to go to the nearby mosque. It's Ramadhan month, the month where we muslims do the Taraweh prayer at night, preferably at the mosque. But that night, I was feeling a bit sleepy and drowsy so I said to myself "think I'll skip the mosque tonight and pray at home instead, after all, I still got feet so I can still go to the mosque tomorrow, right?"


The next day, I sprained my ankle.

Let alone walking to the mosque, I can't even move my ankle without feeling pain!

Anyway, based on my sometimes-quite-useful medical-school knowledge, the first aid for sprained ankle is : RICE.

Rest - Yup, no walking, no jumping up and down, no standing. It's simple : give your injured foot a break.

Ice - Use a tablecloth or a towel to cover blocks of ice and gently press it on the swollen site. Do this in 20 minutes every hour.

Compression - Wear an elastic bandage (I made my kind-hearted friends help me with this) which will immobilize your ankle joint. It's useful because when you have ankle sprain, just a little movement on the joint would be quite painful, seriously. Oh and make sure the bandage isn't too tight or too loose.

Elevation - Lift your injured foot! You'll want the fluid on the swollen foot to make it's way out of there, and you won't make it happen if you keep your foot lower than your body. And don't stand too long because it hurts, trust me. So lift it up! ( I use two cushions or little pillows to lift my foot when I sleep)

Also, you can use an analgetic cream to relieve the pain. I use Voltaren (Natrium Diclofenac) cream, but other analgetics would work too.

Okay, enough, I'm having an exam next week so I really shouldn't be spending too much time in front of my laptop. Sigh. Wish me luck and have a blessed day, everyone! :)


Friday, August 6, 2010

To All The Guys Out There

Your fame, looks, money or career won't impress me, boy.
Your genuine love for God, however, will.


Wednesday, July 28, 2010

The Sorcerer's Apprentice

The A Team.. Karate Kid.. Toy Story 3.. Despicable Me.. Inception (!!) .. so many wonderful movies this summer.

This is gonna be another brilliant one. Can't wait! :)


Sunday, July 18, 2010

Muhammad and Humaira

I really like our names.




It was said that Humaira was a nickname for Aisyah, The Prophet Muhammad's most loved wife. The wife who held him at his last breath.

I know that there are billions of people bearing the name 'Muhammad' in this world.
But I also know that,
after our beloved Rasulullah Sallallahu 'Alaihi Wasallam,

you, Muhammad Azhari Taufik, are the only Muhammad I'm falling in love with.

Once upon a July,
Tessa Humaira A. S

Saturday, July 10, 2010


If today hasn't been your day,
try visiting

Made by a 19 years old guy from Bandung, Indonesia, this site will help you put a smile on your face.

#20 Grandma Was An Athlete

Some other sites I recommend are:

Nigahiga's Youtube Channel


Nguping Jakarta (it's in Indonesian)

those are some of my stress relievers,

what's yours? :)


Friday, July 2, 2010

the Lychee Martini Story

the music was loud
people were dancing

A guy and a girl
Sitting side by side
Enjoying the glittering night
they were laughing at something

Will you marry me?
he suddenly asked.

she replied

Will you marry me, Tessa?

she starred blankly at him,
can't stop herself from blushing
watching him as he carefully forming a sentence

I love you... So much. I.. It just... feels so right.

she laughed

he nodded, resting his head on her shoulder

Will you marry me, please?

she kissed his forehead
took his glass from his hand

It's almost empty

she smiled
and whispered
I think you're drunk

to be continued.


Thursday, June 24, 2010

Silly Old Words

Maybe you're having a bad day.
maybe you hated your job. maybe your love life sucks.
Guess what, you're not the only one with problems!
Life's tough, but it's not a reason to stop being nice to other people!

taken from Tessa Sastrowardoyo's diary,
originally written on February 21st, 2010.


Sunday, June 20, 2010

What More Can A Girl Say?

Kita nikah aja yuk,
Let's get married,

he whispered.

I smiled while whispering back,
Kenapa? :)
Why? :)

Because I'm a better man when I'm with you.

One fine June,

Family Comes First Second

I truly believe that there's no such thing as a perfect family.

Mine, for instance, is far from perfection.

We have our quirks and each of us has our share of insanity.. well not my lil bro, I haven't found out what his is, hopefully he's the sanest of us all. :P (Amen).

But the rest of us.. We all have our 'insanity period'; we make mistakes, sometimes even brought shame to the family...
Trust me if you live with my family at those insanity periods you'd probably think you live in a Gossip-Girl-like tv show :P
...but eventually each time, each of us snapped out of it, apologize, forgiven, made everything right, and we moved on. All of us.

My insanity period? Well.. I ran away from home when I was 16. It's a long story, I'll tell you about it later;)

My point is, my family's not perfect,
but that single fact actually brings me closer to the only perfect thing in this world : My Lord the Almighty.

Yeah I was evolved spiritually and I still have to learn a lot, but right now... well.. I don't know about you guys, but to me, when God comes first, everything feels.. wonderfully okay. :)

And right then I see that an imperfect family is just one of His greatest gift for me. And I'm deeply thankful for it.

Family comes second, right after God.

Inspired by the story of the Prophet Abraham and his son,

peace be upon them.


Friday, May 28, 2010

Cousin Dian's Wedding

Really love this picture,
I think we look like a royal family coming out of a Javanese Kingdom colossal movie. :P


Sunday, May 9, 2010

1 AM

This month,

My older brother got a job at Sampoerna Tbk, one of the largest and most successful companies in Indonesia.

My younger brother graduated with an average score of 94,1. (national highest score is 99,5)

My boyfriend got into Anesthesiology Department at University of Indonesia.


I'm happy for those blessings, and am so proud of them.. But today I can't help but think,

I haven't done anything to make anyone proud.

I haven't done anything this year.

I haven't done anything today.

In fact I've been staring at a blank word page for hours, trying to write my case report, due tomorrow.



Monday, April 26, 2010


I love speaking in foreign languages, I have a reason for it, and it doesn't mean I don't love my Bahasa.

You see, Indonesian Bahasa is my first language.
(now you know why my grammar kinda sucks :P -- yet that's not the point of this post:))

I'm a pure Indonesian girl, BUT I use English at home with my family, I use English in my head, and even in my diary.

In blog world, I use a mixture of Indonesian and English on my posts. But to tell you the truth, I try my best to always write in English. Why? Simply because it's a global language.
At times I hate it when I need to find something important from the Internet and then when I found it it's written in a language that I don't understand. For example, I love Japanese dramas, and yet all updates about the latest dramas are mostly written in Japanese. Or weeks ago when I was searching for medical journals and the interesting ones are written in German.

It made me wish I speak every language in the world. :P

Anyway, a few months ago I found a blog about language and nationalism. It was along the lines of
"Kalo kamu cinta negeri ini, ngga usah sok pake bahasa Inggris hanya untuk terlihat keren. Mana jiwa nasionalisme kamu?"
"If you love this country, stop using English just to look cool. Where's your sense of nationalism?"

Well in my opinion, my sense of nationalism IS by speaking in English. Why? Because again, English is a global language and like it or not, we're facing globalization. By understanding English hopefully the people in our country would be easier to gain access to any knowledge and therefore making us less under-developed than before.
I say let's speak up in English and let the world know how great Indonesia is. :)

*Have you ever watch the Oscar-winning movie Babel? It's about how different languages could lead to misunderstanding and eventually cause chaos. Oh and it has Brad Pitt in it. ;P


Monday, April 19, 2010

Apple's Next iPhone

Seriously, fake or real, I want one already! ;D

Source :

Saturday, April 3, 2010

An April Love Story.

I'm not sure I believe in destiny.

You could be destined to be a famous lawyer. But if you don't study hard to get into lawschool, it won't happen, right?

Well this is my story:
I met him on my first semester at med school. He was on his seventh. We never got introduced and we weren't close friends, but we know each other, because he was quite popular, and I.. well I wasn't bad-looking either. =P
Four years passed, and one day I was in a nearby (about 15 minutes walk from home) supermarket, buying some chocolates to help me get through a recent rough break-up.

Just as I was deciding which ice cream would go better with chocolate syrup, the old supermarket door slightly squeaked. And there he was, his tall figure entering the store.
I remember I took a deep breath, smile, and finally said "Hey, Kak"
he glanced at me, grin, and replied "Hey Tess, didn't see you there! Whatcha doin?"

One month after that day, he was officially my boyfriend.

For weeks I've been telling my friends all about it, about the way we accidentally meet, about our unplanned encounter which leads to a long chat, coffee, karaoke and dinner in one day.
I thought it was destiny.

Until one day..
"Yeah... about that" he said with a grin.
"What about it, dear?"

And then, he told me his side of the story. The real story.
According to him, that day he was driving in a car with some friends. He spotted me walking at the other side of the street and instantly went "Hey, isn't that Tessa? Hey, it is her! Pull over, man!"
"Whoa you're right.. wonder where she's going."
"I bet she's going to the supermarket! Hey listen, why don't you go rent some comic books across the street, I'll go to the supermarket and buy some drinks.. Got it? See if I can get her to join us for coffee."


See? It wasn't destiny. :)

What if he doesn't have the courage to chase me down the street that day?
What if I was too shy to say hi and pretended I didn't see him instead?
Then we wouldn't be celebrating our 1st year anniversary next month.

I know God always has an amazing plan for us, but without our own work, it won't happen.
So we better get up and chase our dreams! Chase 'em, follow 'em wherever it goes, even if it went into the supermarket. :)


"Serius Kak?? Kamu udah liat aku jalan kaki dari ujung jalan ampe supermarket?"
"Hehe.. iyaa"
"Yaah tau gitu aku nebeng!"

Friday, March 26, 2010

Something's Missing.

She has everything.

Wealthy families from both side of the parent.
Good grades, and a career planned.
Massive amount of great friends to share laughter with
A hilarious boyfriend who's madly in love with her.
A closet full of adorable shoes, bags, clothes..
Books and music to color her life
Best friends who, near or far, will always be there for her

Plus, she was born with dark thick hair and white healthy skin

Yeah she was born with everything.

and yet something's missing.

something's always felt missing
when she's drifting away from Him.

So she's saying 'Alhamdulillah' and 'Astagfirullah' to ease this uncomfortable feeling.


Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Dear Future Husband,

"Dear future husband,

I can't cook. And I'm not planning to learn to.
If someday we live together, we would have to pay somebody to cook for us.

Dear future husband,
I'm gonna have my career. I DON'T stay at home all day long.

Dear future husband,
I'll dress however I want. You don't have to like it, just don't try to change it.

and one more thing, dear future husband,
I maybe difficult at times, but I'll love you.

your future wife."

-If he can't take you at your worst, then he doesn't deserve you at your best-

I was twittering today and one of the Trending Topic was #dearfuturewife. At first the tweets were funny, but then I read them again and they were so degrading to women. I hated most of it, honestly.
So out of boredom, I decided to write this ;)


Friday, March 12, 2010

Learning the ABC (and not the way we did in kindergarten)

One patient died this morning.
I did the CPR thing, yeah you know, the one you saw on movies... It's not as cool as it looks, believe me.

I've been an intern on this hospital for almost 6 months and it was the first time someone died during my shift, on my watch, so I can't help but feel a little gloomy.

Anyway, afterwards I remembered my bestfriend Asti contacted me a few weeks ago. She said "Tess, you have to teach me how to be a doctor!" amused by the question yet confused, I replied "Why?" and she told me her story; basically her friend was on an accident and she was right in front of her, not knowing what to do, and of course, she feels sorry for being not helpful at all at that time.

Well.. Here's a little First Aid tips:
1. Calm yourself down
2. Call for help, ambulance, a nearby clinic, anything
3. Help the person, but don't put yourself in danger
4. Introduce yourself and tell them your going to help
5. Do not feed or give drink to the person. And avoid moving them. (In Indonesia these are the most common mistakes people do on traffic accidents)
6. If there is a more competent person came around (a doctor, or other emergency health professionals) let them do their job.
7. Stop helping if you're exhausted

Now, the basics of First Aid are ABC.

A- Airway
B- Breathing
C- Circulation

It might take more than one entry of a blog to explain it, so if you're really curious, you can read about it here :

Happy learning!


Thursday, March 11, 2010

Satine, Summer, and Someone named Tessa

Moulin Rouge's Satine and 500 Days's Summer Finn are two of my most favorite movie characters.
Maybe because I have one thing in common with them:
we think marriage is overrated.

And by the way,
Those two movies are seriously amazing. Brilliant stories, wonderful music, and of course.. adorable costumes! Oh I'd love to have everything inside Summer Finn's wardrobe! ;D

with love,

once upon an "I Hate Sunday"

Have you ever wish that time would stop, so that you don't have to face something that you don't want to face?

I bet your answer is yes. *sotoy*

Haha. But seriously, there's something that I've learned today.
You see, I woke up this Sunday morning feeling like sh*t. Why? because I have something to do on this Sunday evening and I was really really not in the mood to do it.

What did I do? I tweet : "I wish I could say 'Bodo Amat' and get on with it"

and you know what, quite lots of my friends re-tweeted it. To me it just proves one thing : There are lots of other people out there who has the same problem. AND theirs could be worse than mine.

See, my problem was I had a singing rehearsal that night, and my partner is a very verrryy good vocalist. It was an honor working with him, but it was also challenging. He's been singing for like, I dunno, 25 years? (Man, I wasn't even born yet 25 years ago!) Shortly, he was a real pro. And that makes me, singing beside him, a real mess.
It's a challenge, I know. But believe me, juggling it all with internship, night shifts, French class and everything… Not an easy thing.

Okay, I will stop complaining now. ;)

My point is, THAT is my problem. If you’re dealing with a smaller problem than mine, be thankful. If yours is worse, then I wish you well.