Her Side Of Story

Dear you,

2012-01-23T09:12:00.000-06:00

do you know what triggers jealousy? Insecurity.
do you know what cures jealousy? Confidence.
do you know who can give that kind of confidence to you?

you yourself and no one else.

Love,
TS

Yup, I'm the luckiest girl (:

2012-01-23T04:21:00.002-06:00

Love,
TS

"... Little do they know, that to me the highlight of that delicious-looking picture lies at the bottom right."

Birthday Cakes, anyone?

2012-01-23T03:38:00.006-06:00

I always thought that you can see how thoughtful the people you love are, by what kind of cake they gave you on your birthday. :D

1. January 10th 2008

because Kiwi is my favorite fruit. :) this was from my family and my best friends.

2. January 10th 2010
(My best friend Erien gave me a square double-layered chocolate cake with white icing, because you know, I love love love chocolate and white is one my most favorite color)
*I can't find the picture, though :(

3. January 10th 2011

from my best friends again. Because music is the food to my soul.
I think I put a video of this 2011 birthday celebration on my previous blog entry somewhere. Go watch it if you're curious. :)

4. January 10th 2012

from my family. Guess it's kinda obvious why they picked a medical doctor theme, eh? :) And I love how this cake is very detailed, the posters on the left wall is actually a real human anatomy picture!

I know a friend of mine who gave her bass-player boyfriend a birthday cake shaped like a bass guitar. And another one of my friends decorated his girlfriend's birthday cake with flower petals. Well, they're inedible, but still, sweet. :D

D'you have any other ideas for birthday cakes? Do let me know. :)

Love,
TS

Current Obsessions : Vlogs.

2012-01-23T03:24:00.002-06:00

I've been subscribing to many awesome people who Vlogs (vlogging = video-blogging) on Youtube, including this girl named Ingrid. I think she's funny, entertaining, and inspiring in some ways.

She actually makes me wanna start a vlog someday. What d'you think? :)

Love,
TS

Do people still blog nowadays? :)

2012-01-23T03:18:00.004-06:00

I can't believe it's been.. 5 months since I've posted anything on this blog. :D
One of the main reason was that, to be honest, most of the time I prefer writing stuffs in Twitter (please don't kill me, Blogspot :P) But I do miss blogging at some point, so here I am, logged out of UberSocial, and in front of my MacBook again.

Many things have changed during that 5 months period of time.
I graduated from med school (finally officially a Physician!),
packed my bags and moved back to my parent's house in Jakarta,
spend New Year's Eve playing TONS of games with cousins,
had an amazing Birthday (I'll get back to that later),
and made a bunch of new plans and goals.

In case you're curious, here's a glimpse of my Graduation, which happened on October and November of 2011. (:

Graduating was a bittersweet experience. So glad that school's over, yet so hard to say goodbye to everything I've known and attached to these past 6 years.

Yeah.. Life is full of twists. But that's what makes it an interesting journey. Right? (:

Love,

Tess, MD.

Another August 26th

2011-08-25T22:17:00.001-05:00

Kmu mau kado apa?

Aku mau kamuu selalu ada buat aku, selalu support aku, selalu sayang sama akuuu..

Ih gitu doang? kok gampang banget kadonya..

Kata siapa gampang? "Selalu" loh. Se-la-lu!

Oh iya deng.. Kalo gitu aku pikir2 dulu ya.. :D

Hahahhahaaha..

Happy Birthday, love.
Semoga kmu selalu tertawa bahagia seperti pagi ini. :)

TS

Smitten

2011-07-20T04:54:00.001-05:00

Love is a serious mental disease. -Plato

Hmmmm...

Don't cure me, then ;)

Love,
TS

just a thought on one fine june.

2011-06-07T22:59:00.001-05:00

A secret should remain a secret.

But an interesting story you can't tell anyone is actually.. well, worthless, right?

Tess.

Easy A

2011-03-30T07:51:00.002-05:00

turns out to be a pretty good movie.
Hilarious and witty dialogue throughout the scenes. Well, the story's a typical high school comedy, but Emma Stone did a really amazing job! :)

My personal favorite : "Pocketful of Sunshine" scenes. ;D

Love,
TS

My (un)typical answer

2011-03-11T05:02:00.006-06:00

Good looks stays in our minds for a while,
but a good conversation lingers longer.

Earlier in our relationship people often asks me, "What is it that you like about him?" Normally I would reply with a typical answer, like "You don't need a reason to love someone." or "Simply everything about him." Those answers are actually kinda true, but if you want my honest one, it would be this:

In addition to his charm, looks, cleverness and that he constantly always, always treats me like a lady, what I like most about him is.. the way he communicates with me.

He's the one I can speak about everything and also nothing.
We'd sit in a cafe for hours talking flight-of-ideas-ly until it's time for the waitresses to go home (maafkan kami ya mba dan mas waitress). Or spending time on the phone from after dinner until the Subuh prayer.

That's why this time, long distance is very easy for me. :)

Aku ga pernah ngobrol sama orang seperti aku ngobrol sama dia.
was my answer to a friend a few days ago.

Geez. I don't know why I made this kind of blog entry. Haha.

Have you ever had that time when you're in love and you just HAVE to tell the whole world about it? ;P

TS

Who are we?

2011-02-01T06:44:00.006-06:00

One of my college friend died last year.

It was the first time I've ever lost a friend. At the age of 23, it was quite shocking, actually. He wasn't a close one but we went to the same classes and had the same teacher as our counselor for four years, so we always met each other on the beginning of every semester.

At the night of his death almost all of my friends came to the hospital to pray and say goodbye.

And although I tried to hide or deny it.... that incident really changed my life. Or at least, the way I look at life.

Who are we? Who are we when it's our turn to lie there, with our eyes closed and our breath silenced?

We became nothing but pieces of memories. Some people might remember the way you smile, the clothes you often wear, the things you own, the car you drive, your GPA, how brilliant you are... some might not.

But they will remember the way you make them feel. Your kindness, the way you treat them, your politeness, the way you always lighten up the room.. Like the old saying; They probably won't remember what you did, but they will remember how you make them feel.

So the question is, how do you wanna be remembered?

Love,
TS

January, Best Time Of The Year.

2011-01-14T08:01:00.007-06:00

Love,
TS

A Glimpse of Love

2010-11-27T08:39:00.007-06:00

..adalah ketika di sela-sela
24 jam tugas jaganya di rumah sakit,

dia menemukan sedikit waktu istirahat,
untuk sejenak melepas penat

tapi bukannya dipakai untuk tidur...

dia lebih memilih

untuk

menelpon aku.

Love,
TS

November 19th is Finally Here.

2010-11-18T16:44:00.003-06:00

Love,
TS

the Money Story

2010-11-15T02:09:00.004-06:00

Isn't it heartbreaking that money is often the source of every problems,
and at the same time,
the answer to most of them?

"Kenapa ga berobat dari dulu Pak?"
"Ga ada biaya, dok."
"Kenapa ga pernah kontrol Pak?"
"Ga ada biaya, dok."

"Sebelum bicara sendiri seperti ini, di rumah ada masalah apa Pak?"
"Dia kepengen sekolah tapi..... ga ada biaya, dok."
*

-------------------------------------------------------

*
"Why didn't you come to the hospital sooner?"
"We didn't have any money, doc."
"Why didn't you come for the routine check ups?"
"We didn't have any money, doc."
"Before he started talking to himself like this, does he have any problems at home, Sir?"
"Well, he wanted to go to school but..... we didn't have any money, doc."

Bagi gw, ini stase yang paling bikin hati miris.

One gloomy day,
TS

The Social Network

2010-10-13T03:24:00.001-05:00

Ten years ago I wouldn't know who Mark Zuckerberg is.
But on 2004, he did something that changed the world.
Including mine.
And probably yours, too.

Good Lord I seriously can't wait to watch this.

Love,
TS

Did you know?

2010-09-30T03:15:00.003-05:00

Girls make up 70 percent of the world’s 125 million out-of-school youth.
One in seven girls in the developing world marries before the age of 15.
In developing countries, most girls never receive a check-up or see a doctor.

Let's make a difference.

GirlUp.Org

For Girls, By Girls.

Love,
TS

22 PM

2010-09-28T10:16:00.001-05:00

There's got to be more to life than just chasing dreams after dreams,
racing towards goals after goals.
Maybe that's why God created the ultimate finish line : Heaven.

Love,
TS

I heart IKEA

2010-09-26T06:57:00.007-05:00

I'm one of those girls who love furniture as much as guys love porn.

And to me,
Ikea in the furniture world, is like Apple in the tech world.
They both produce stunningly adorable products.

If these were Indonesian buses, instead of Ikea-designed Russian and Japanese subway cars, I'd stop taking cabs or any other vehicle. ;)

Click here for the 2011 Singapore IKEA Catalog.

Cheers!
TS

How To Treat A Sprained Ankle

2010-08-20T01:40:00.009-05:00

I've learned something this past few days : Do NOT take anything for granted, especially your health.

Three days ago I was preparing to go to the nearby mosque. It's Ramadhan month, the month where we muslims do the Taraweh prayer at night, preferably at the mosque. But that night, I was feeling a bit sleepy and drowsy so I said to myself "think I'll skip the mosque tonight and pray at home instead, after all, I still got feet so I can still go to the mosque tomorrow, right?"

Wrong.

The next day, I sprained my ankle.

Let alone walking to the mosque, I can't even move my ankle without feeling pain!

Anyway, based on my sometimes-quite-useful medical-school knowledge, the first aid for sprained ankle is : RICE.

Rest - Yup, no walking, no jumping up and down, no standing. It's simple : give your injured foot a break.

Ice - Use a tablecloth or a towel to cover blocks of ice and gently press it on the swollen site. Do this in 20 minutes every hour.

Compression - Wear an elastic bandage (I made my kind-hearted friends help me with this) which will immobilize your ankle joint. It's useful because when you have ankle sprain, just a little movement on the joint would be quite painful, seriously. Oh and make sure the bandage isn't too tight or too loose.

Elevation - Lift your injured foot! You'll want the fluid on the swollen foot to make it's way out of there, and you won't make it happen if you keep your foot lower than your body. And don't stand too long because it hurts, trust me. So lift it up! ( I use two cushions or little pillows to lift my foot when I sleep)

Also, you can use an analgetic cream to relieve the pain. I use Voltaren (Natrium Diclofenac) cream, but other analgetics would work too.

Okay, enough, I'm having an exam next week so I really shouldn't be spending too much time in front of my laptop. Sigh. Wish me luck and have a blessed day, everyone! :)

Love,
TS

To All The Guys Out There

2010-08-06T07:17:00.002-05:00

Your fame, looks, money or career won't impress me, boy.
Your genuine love for God, however, will.

Love,
TS

The Sorcerer's Apprentice

2010-07-27T19:02:00.004-05:00

The A Team.. Karate Kid.. Toy Story 3.. Despicable Me.. Inception (!!) .. so many wonderful movies this summer.

This is gonna be another brilliant one. Can't wait! :)

Love,
TS

Muhammad and Humaira

2010-07-18T02:14:00.003-05:00

I really like our names.

yours

and,

mine.

It was said that Humaira was a nickname for Aisyah, The Prophet Muhammad's most loved wife. The wife who held him at his last breath.

I know that there are billions of people bearing the name 'Muhammad' in this world.
But I also know that,
after our beloved Rasulullah Sallallahu 'Alaihi Wasallam,

you, Muhammad Azhari Taufik, are the only Muhammad I'm falling in love with.

Once upon a July,
Tessa Humaira A. S

:)

2010-07-09T22:24:00.006-05:00

If today hasn't been your day,
try visiting locomostrip.com.

Made by a 19 years old guy from Bandung, Indonesia, this site will help you put a smile on your face.
;)

#20 Grandma Was An Athlete

Some other sites I recommend are:

Nigahiga's Youtube Channel

and

Nguping Jakarta (it's in Indonesian)

those are some of my stress relievers,

what's yours? :)

Love,
TS

the Lychee Martini Story

2010-07-02T08:00:00.002-05:00

the music was loud
people were dancing
partying

A guy and a girl
Sitting side by side
Enjoying the glittering night
they were laughing at something

Will you marry me?
he suddenly asked.

What?
she replied

Will you marry me, Tessa?

she starred blankly at him,
can't stop herself from blushing
watching him as he carefully forming a sentence

I love you... So much. I.. It just... feels so right.

she laughed
Really?

he nodded, resting his head on her shoulder

Will you marry me, please?

she kissed his forehead
took his glass from his hand

It's almost empty

she smiled
and whispered
I think you're drunk

to be continued.

Love,
TS

Silly Old Words

2010-06-24T04:00:00.002-05:00

Maybe you're having a bad day.
maybe you hated your job. maybe your love life sucks.
Guess what, you're not the only one with problems!
Life's tough, but it's not a reason to stop being nice to other people!

taken from Tessa Sastrowardoyo's diary,
originally written on February 21st, 2010.

Love,
TS

What More Can A Girl Say?

2010-06-20T09:15:00.014-05:00

Kita nikah aja yuk,
Let's get married,

he whispered.

I smiled while whispering back,
Kenapa? :)
Why? :)

Because I'm a better man when I'm with you.

One fine June,
TS

Family Comes First Second

2010-06-20T00:38:00.007-05:00

I truly believe that there's no such thing as a perfect family.

Mine, for instance, is far from perfection.

We have our quirks and each of us has our share of insanity.. well not my lil bro, I haven't found out what his is, hopefully he's the sanest of us all. :P (Amen).

But the rest of us.. We all have our 'insanity period'; we make mistakes, sometimes even brought shame to the family...
Trust me if you live with my family at those insanity periods you'd probably think you live in a Gossip-Girl-like tv show :P
...but eventually each time, each of us snapped out of it, apologize, forgiven, made everything right, and we moved on. All of us.

My insanity period? Well.. I ran away from home when I was 16. It's a long story, I'll tell you about it later;)

My point is, my family's not perfect,
but that single fact actually brings me closer to the only perfect thing in this world : My Lord the Almighty.

Yeah I was evolved spiritually and I still have to learn a lot, but right now... well.. I don't know about you guys, but to me, when God comes first, everything feels.. wonderfully okay. :)

And right then I see that an imperfect family is just one of His greatest gift for me. And I'm deeply thankful for it.

Family comes second, right after God.

Inspired by the story of the Prophet Abraham and his son,

peace be upon them.

Love,
TS

Cousin Dian's Wedding

2010-05-27T22:28:00.010-05:00

Really love this picture,
I think we look like a royal family coming out of a Javanese Kingdom colossal movie. :P

Love,
TS

1 AM

2010-05-09T09:06:00.008-05:00

This month,

My older brother got a job at Sampoerna Tbk, one of the largest and most successful companies in Indonesia.

My younger brother graduated with an average score of 94,1. (national highest score is 99,5)

My boyfriend got into Anesthesiology Department at University of Indonesia.

Alhamdulillah..

I'm happy for those blessings, and am so proud of them.. But today I can't help but think,

I haven't done anything to make anyone proud.

I haven't done anything this year.

I haven't done anything today.

In fact I've been staring at a blank word page for hours, trying to write my case report, due tomorrow.

Sigh.

TS

Babel*

2010-04-26T09:23:00.006-05:00

I love speaking in foreign languages, I have a reason for it, and it doesn't mean I don't love my Bahasa.

You see, Indonesian Bahasa is my first language.
(now you know why my grammar kinda sucks :P -- yet that's not the point of this post:))

I'm a pure Indonesian girl, BUT I use English at home with my family, I use English in my head, and even in my diary.

In blog world, I use a mixture of Indonesian and English on my posts. But to tell you the truth, I try my best to always write in English. Why? Simply because it's a global language.
At times I hate it when I need to find something important from the Internet and then when I found it it's written in a language that I don't understand. For example, I love Japanese dramas, and yet all updates about the latest dramas are mostly written in Japanese. Or weeks ago when I was searching for medical journals and the interesting ones are written in German.

It made me wish I speak every language in the world. :P

Anyway, a few months ago I found a blog about language and nationalism. It was along the lines of
"Kalo kamu cinta negeri ini, ngga usah sok pake bahasa Inggris hanya untuk terlihat keren. Mana jiwa nasionalisme kamu?"
"If you love this country, stop using English just to look cool. Where's your sense of nationalism?"

Well in my opinion, my sense of nationalism IS by speaking in English. Why? Because again, English is a global language and like it or not, we're facing globalization. By understanding English hopefully the people in our country would be easier to gain access to any knowledge and therefore making us less under-developed than before.
I say let's speak up in English and let the world know how great Indonesia is. :)

*Have you ever watch the Oscar-winning movie Babel? It's about how different languages could lead to misunderstanding and eventually cause chaos. Oh and it has Brad Pitt in it. ;P

Cheers,
TS

Apple's Next iPhone

2010-04-19T09:51:00.004-05:00

Seriously, fake or real, I want one already! ;D

Source : http://gizmodo.com/5520164/

An April Love Story.

2010-04-03T08:49:00.010-05:00

I'm not sure I believe in destiny.

You could be destined to be a famous lawyer. But if you don't study hard to get into lawschool, it won't happen, right?

Well this is my story:
I met him on my first semester at med school. He was on his seventh. We never got introduced and we weren't close friends, but we know each other, because he was quite popular, and I.. well I wasn't bad-looking either. =P
Four years passed, and one day I was in a nearby (about 15 minutes walk from home) supermarket, buying some chocolates to help me get through a recent rough break-up.

Just as I was deciding which ice cream would go better with chocolate syrup, the old supermarket door slightly squeaked. And there he was, his tall figure entering the store.
I remember I took a deep breath, smile, and finally said "Hey, Kak"
he glanced at me, grin, and replied "Hey Tess, didn't see you there! Whatcha doin?"

One month after that day, he was officially my boyfriend.

For weeks I've been telling my friends all about it, about the way we accidentally meet, about our unplanned encounter which leads to a long chat, coffee, karaoke and dinner in one day.
I thought it was destiny.

Until one day..
"Yeah... about that" he said with a grin.
"What about it, dear?"

And then, he told me his side of the story. The real story.
According to him, that day he was driving in a car with some friends. He spotted me walking at the other side of the street and instantly went "Hey, isn't that Tessa? Hey, it is her! Pull over, man!"
"Whoa you're right.. wonder where she's going."
"I bet she's going to the supermarket! Hey listen, why don't you go rent some comic books across the street, I'll go to the supermarket and buy some drinks.. Got it? See if I can get her to join us for coffee."

Gubrak.

See? It wasn't destiny. :)

What if he doesn't have the courage to chase me down the street that day?
What if I was too shy to say hi and pretended I didn't see him instead?
Then we wouldn't be celebrating our 1st year anniversary next month.

I know God always has an amazing plan for us, but without our own work, it won't happen.
So we better get up and chase our dreams! Chase 'em, follow 'em wherever it goes, even if it went into the supermarket. :)

Love,
TS

"Serius Kak?? Kamu udah liat aku jalan kaki dari ujung jalan ampe supermarket?"
"Hehe.. iyaa"
"Yaah tau gitu aku nebeng!"

Something's Missing.

2010-03-25T22:42:00.011-05:00

She has everything.

Wealthy families from both side of the parent.
Good grades, and a career planned.
Massive amount of great friends to share laughter with
A hilarious boyfriend who's madly in love with her.
A closet full of adorable shoes, bags, clothes..
Books and music to color her life
Best friends who, near or far, will always be there for her

Plus, she was born with dark thick hair and white healthy skin

Yeah she was born with everything.

and yet something's missing.

something's always felt missing
when she's drifting away from Him.

So she's saying 'Alhamdulillah' and 'Astagfirullah' to ease this uncomfortable feeling.

Love,
TS

Dear Future Husband,

2010-03-23T03:51:00.004-05:00

"Dear future husband,

I can't cook. And I'm not planning to learn to.
If someday we live together, we would have to pay somebody to cook for us.

Dear future husband,
I'm gonna have my career. I DON'T stay at home all day long.

Dear future husband,
I'll dress however I want. You don't have to like it, just don't try to change it.

and one more thing, dear future husband,
I maybe difficult at times, but I'll love you.

xoxo
your future wife."

-If he can't take you at your worst, then he doesn't deserve you at your best-

I was twittering today and one of the Trending Topic was #dearfuturewife. At first the tweets were funny, but then I read them again and they were so degrading to women. I hated most of it, honestly.
So out of boredom, I decided to write this ;)

Love,
TS

Learning the ABC (and not the way we did in kindergarten)

2010-03-12T05:34:00.009-06:00

One patient died this morning.
I did the CPR thing, yeah you know, the one you saw on movies... It's not as cool as it looks, believe me.

I've been an intern on this hospital for almost 6 months and it was the first time someone died during my shift, on my watch, so I can't help but feel a little gloomy.

Anyway, afterwards I remembered my bestfriend Asti contacted me a few weeks ago. She said "Tess, you have to teach me how to be a doctor!" amused by the question yet confused, I replied "Why?" and she told me her story; basically her friend was on an accident and she was right in front of her, not knowing what to do, and of course, she feels sorry for being not helpful at all at that time.

Well.. Here's a little First Aid tips:
1. Calm yourself down
2. Call for help, ambulance, a nearby clinic, anything
3. Help the person, but don't put yourself in danger
4. Introduce yourself and tell them your going to help
5. Do not feed or give drink to the person. And avoid moving them. (In Indonesia these are the most common mistakes people do on traffic accidents)
6. If there is a more competent person came around (a doctor, or other emergency health professionals) let them do their job.
7. Stop helping if you're exhausted

Now, the basics of First Aid are ABC.

A- Airway
B- Breathing
C- Circulation

It might take more than one entry of a blog to explain it, so if you're really curious, you can read about it here :
http://www.sja.org.uk/sja/first-aid-advice/life-saving-procedures.aspx
http://www.wikihow.com/Do-Basic-First-Aid

Happy learning!

Love,
TS

Satine, Summer, and Someone named Tessa

2010-03-11T06:13:00.004-06:00

Moulin Rouge's Satine and 500 Days's Summer Finn are two of my most favorite movie characters.
Maybe because I have one thing in common with them:
we think marriage is overrated.
;)

And by the way,
Those two movies are seriously amazing. Brilliant stories, wonderful music, and of course.. adorable costumes! Oh I'd love to have everything inside Summer Finn's wardrobe! ;D

with love,
TS

once upon an "I Hate Sunday"

2010-03-11T03:28:00.002-06:00

Have you ever wish that time would stop, so that you don't have to face something that you don't want to face?

I bet your answer is yes. *sotoy*

Haha. But seriously, there's something that I've learned today.
You see, I woke up this Sunday morning feeling like sh*t. Why? because I have something to do on this Sunday evening and I was really really not in the mood to do it.

What did I do? I tweet : "I wish I could say 'Bodo Amat' and get on with it"

and you know what, quite lots of my friends re-tweeted it. To me it just proves one thing : There are lots of other people out there who has the same problem. AND theirs could be worse than mine.

See, my problem was I had a singing rehearsal that night, and my partner is a very verrryy good vocalist. It was an honor working with him, but it was also challenging. He's been singing for like, I dunno, 25 years? (Man, I wasn't even born yet 25 years ago!) Shortly, he was a real pro. And that makes me, singing beside him, a real mess.
It's a challenge, I know. But believe me, juggling it all with internship, night shifts, French class and everything… Not an easy thing.

Okay, I will stop complaining now. ;)

My point is, THAT is my problem. If you’re dealing with a smaller problem than mine, be thankful. If yours is worse, then I wish you well.
:)

Love,
TS

Tukang Bohong!

2009-12-15T05:14:00.005-06:00

Dear you,

You're a big liar!

Knapa?

Karna kmu selalu bilang, kmu ga romantis.
So how come you waited and waited for me, just to have our late chat under the moon?

Kamu bilang, kmu ga romantis.

but you gave me surprises all the time..
showing up at EF, at the airport, at my door..
you showed up everywhere!

with a single red rose.
Another time with a bouquet of them.

and chocolates.
and dinner with the city lights.
and you gave compliments, even when I'm still in my pajamas.

and still, kamu bilang kamu ga romantis,

but you said the L word every single day.

Dan kamu masih bisa bilang kamu ga romantis?

You're a bad liar. :)

TS

and by the way, i L you too. ;)

I love Axioo!

2009-11-13T20:21:00.003-06:00

If you are one of my closest friends, you'll probably already know that I'm not planning on getting married. At least not in 5-7 years from now. But I adore photography. And in this case, pre-wedding photographs.

This is my favorite so far. If I ever have one It'll probably look more or less like this.

I love Axioo! Sayang mahal nya gila-gilaan. =P They have an exhibition down at Plaza Indonesia, Jakarta

Visit axioo.com if you're curious. ;)

Feeling like sh*t? Be glad about it! ;)

2009-10-13T07:53:00.004-05:00

Around 4 months ago, I was introduced to a very nice and inspiring woman.
The first thing about her which amaze me was, she's 25 and she's juggling her education and work everyday. And not just any ordinary work, she's a program director at Prambors Radio Semarang. Keren banget yah?

But this is what she said, "Lo pikir enak, jadi model terkenal? Jadi bos besar perusahaan paling sukses di Indonesia? Jadi dokter bedah paling laris? Ga segampang yang kita kira lho.. Semua pekerjaan yang terlihat keren tuh sebenernya kalo dijalanin rasanya kayak t** tau.."

Dunno why but sampe sekarang kalimat itu terus yang gw inget tiap gw lagi down; bahwa semua kerjaan keren butuh perjuangan, dan kalo sekarang gw banyak pikiran, stress dan ngerasa kayak t**, itu artinya... gw lagi keren-keren nya! ;D

Regards,
TS

Ever Ever After

2009-09-28T05:37:00.004-05:00

Ariel. Cinderella. Snow White. Aurora. Jasmine. Belle. Mulan.
As a young girl, I grew up watching, loving, and got deeply inspired by their stories. Now I'm more than excited by the news that Disney will soon release a new 2D-Princess-Movie this year! :D

:)
wishing you a happily ever after,
TS

Blablabla

2009-09-23T04:26:00.004-05:00

This game, I'll win it.
I'll do it my way
Never gonna bend or change it for anything.
Not for you, not for them.
I'm playing it my way and I'll win this game.

You are my present,
but I make my own future.

Once upon a September,
TS

Kisah Kasih di..

2009-09-09T10:50:00.003-05:00

Cowok : *duduk di sebelah gw, pelan-pelan ngulurin tangan ngajak kenalan*
Gw : *senyum, ngulurin tangan juga*
Cowok : *menyebutkan namanya*
Gw : Saya Tessa, Mas.
Cowok : Ooh... Cantik. *senyum2 malu2*
Gw : eh? Kenapa Mas?
Cowok : *nunduk, makin senyum2 malu2* Gapapa... Cantik.
Gw : Oh. Eh, makasih.. hehe.

Kalo di film-film, ini adalah awal dari kisah cinta romantis ber-ending happily ever after.

But in reality, ini terjadi di bangsal Rumah Sakit Jiwa, dengan tokoh utama seorang coass muda dan pasiennya.

Semoga kamu cepat sembuh, mas. :)

Sincerely,
TS.

Yasmin Ahmad's Brilliant Works.

2009-08-07T17:17:00.007-05:00

This video was directed by Yasmin Ahmad, and also one of the most inspiring, touching, heart-warming TV commercials I've ever seen.

I found a Behind The Scene video for "Funeral", where she had talked about the main idea of the well-known commercial.

She had said that it's a common global disease that people are reluctant to get married, because we tend to search for perfections on our partners or, for some, have the desire to become perfect. (ini gw banget, hahaha)
Well, guess what?
"Somebody actually love you for your imperfections, isn't that great? It could only happen with family." she said.

Another one of my favorites is her Tan Hong Ming's Love.

Yasmin Ahmad (July 1, 1958 - July 25, 2009) was a critically-acclaimed multi-award winning film director, writer and scriptwriter from Malaysia and was also the executive creative director at Leo Burnett Kuala Lumpur.

Regards,
TS

Again!

2009-08-02T10:13:00.010-05:00

I think I'm cursed.

Ngga deng. Hehe.

But seriously! Ada satu hal yang terus menerus terjadi dalam hidup gw sejak jaman dulu kala.
Again and again. And again.
,
and again.

Jadi ceritanya, ada seseorang, sebut saja Kumbang (bukan nama sebenarnya)... Err.. jangan kumbang deh, secara orang ini one of my VIP, so.. ayo kita cari nama yang bagusan dikit.

Leonardo?
Artemis?
Lee Donghae?

ah sudahlah.

Taufik. Namanya Taufik.

Gw biasa memanggil dia 'Kak' or sometimes 'si kakak'

Yak lanjut.
Si kakak ini bakal pulang ke Semarang seminggu lagi, setelah ngejalanin kompre (kayak KKN gitu) selama 2 bulan di Pemalang yang serasa 2 tahun. (Lebay deng, 1 bulan pertama dia pulang tiap minggu, so.. biasa aja. hehehe.) TAPI oh tapi.. Selesai kompre berarti dia udah selangkah lg menuju wisuda dokter bulan Oktober nanti. Which means.. he's moving back to Jakarta.

Which also means.. another long-freakin-distance relationship for me.

Now you understand why I think I'm cursed, right?
I almost always end up being in this kind of situation.
LDR, that is.

Apa ada yang pernah gw sakitin trus nyumpahin gw yah?
*yeah mantan-mantanku, silakan tertawa sepuasnya.
hehehe ngga deng. apa kabar kalian semua? :)*

Well anyway, ada satu (dari beberapa) hal POSITIF yang gw dapet dari having a long distance relationship : layaknya bank, gw jadi lebih Mandiri.
Serius, itu satu hal yang gw syukurin banget. :)

Gw ngga akan se-independen sekarang kalo gw ngga sering terjebak dalam keadaan pengen-ditemenin-pacar-tapi-dia-jauh-amat-yah-yaudah-ah-mau-gmana-lagi-masa-gini-doang-ga-bisa-dikerjain-sendiri.

Dan masih banyak hal positif lainnya sih. And the negative ones? Ngga usah disebutin lah ya, everybody knows long distance sucks. =P

In conclusion I think there are always gonna be the down side and great side about everything. Tergantung kitanya aja mau ngeliat dari sisi yang mana. Ya ga sih. ;)

Regards,
TS

2009-07-21T22:24:00.002-05:00

this could be infatuation
or another temporary adoration

this could be nothing
or everything

people dreamed of this,
talk about this,
yearning to have this,

this thing between us.

48 kilograms.

2009-07-01T08:44:00.006-05:00

These pictures were taken about a week ago, and it made me realize something.

I'm not skinny anymore.

Or is it just because I was standing beside my slim and (very) tall younger brother?

Well, either way, I don't really care. ;)

To me, life's too short to hurt ourselves with any unreasonable diet.

Do you agree?

Regards,
TS

MJ

2009-06-29T23:30:00.005-05:00

you never said goodbye
someone tell me why
did you have to go
and leave my world so cold?

everyday I sit and ask myself
how did love slips away
something whispers in my ears and say

you are not alone.

Rest in peace, Michael.

Regards,
TS

photo source: product-reviews.net

Should I Follow?

2009-06-20T01:09:00.006-05:00

After 6 years of playing with Friendster,
2 years of Facebooking around,
plus killing time with MySpace, Multiply, Hi5, Zorpia and a few others I eventually neglect,
now I'm considering about making a twitter account.

I probably won't update my status much, personally I think the world doesn't need to know what time did I woke up this morning nor how I spend my Saturday evening. (In case you're pretty curious, you may find the answer by asking si comel facebook anyway. =P)

The only reason I wanted an account is because I wanna follow her.

She's one of my long time role model. I've been adoring this super-smart down-to-earth beautiful young woman ever since I saw her sitting on a couch with Oprah, talking about Women Rights, Education, Islam and What It Is Like To Be A Queen.

Recently, she also stated that tweeting can help change the world.

So, should I make a twitter account? Dilema, dilema.

anyway,
Have A Nice Weekend, Everyone! :)
TS

photo source: daylife.com

Answers?

2009-06-19T07:12:00.004-05:00

Your eyes, oh I know they're questioning.
You're steady
But silently searching.

And I keep on hiding
my heart, my feeling

You're looking
Oh I know you need answers
But I keep on hiding

Because I'm scared

Because then you'll know

you'll see

me.

TS.

Yah Gitu Deh.

2009-06-19T06:14:00.009-05:00

Found this in one of my old diaries.

"Ya Allah,
jadikanlah air mata ini,
pemadam api nerakaMu
bagi orang-orang yang aku cintai
di akhirat nanti."

Originally written March 2009.

That was me, trying to be positive.
But I can't remember what I was crying about. =P

Come to think of it, I sound quite devastated then, don't I?
But I am fine right now.
Yes, time heals, I guess.

Regards
TS

Something.

2009-06-19T05:00:00.008-05:00

Oh this is confusing.

I wanted to write something
something else instead of the warmth that I'm feeling.
Something more than his gaze that keeps on haunting.

Oh I just wanted to write something.
Something else,
anything.

anything else
but him.

One month is too fast
but i can't help it, I'm falling.

June 2009.

TS

Another Seven Days In Sunny June

2009-06-19T03:26:00.008-05:00

I can't stop laughing at my bestfriend Chika's status a few days ago:

Ashry Chika Aradilla : wahai teman2 semester 8 bertobatlah kalian sebelum di tobatkan.. hahaha mau jadi Dokter seperti apa klo kerjaan kita cuma sulapan, bikin rusuuh acara orang, nonton konser, jalan2 dan karaoke doank?? hahaha

And yes, Chika's words are so true.

Like, seriously. This week I :
Friday
spent the whole day with my besties : wondering around Kota Lama and dancing the night away at Maliq & d'essentials' show.
Saturday
took a swim. a warm bath. a blow-dry at a beauty salon. dinner with friends. and on-on pub afterwards.
Sunday
clean my room up. *surprise, surprise*
Monday
went window shopping ice cream licking burger eating with another bestie Lita, and then another Karaoke Nite.
Tuesday
oh i have an exam on wednesday.
Wednesday
took a drive to Gunung Pati. Had loads of fun despite the fact that we got kinda lost. ;P
Thursday
did the pbl project. *tumben ga ada ke-hedon-an hari ini*

Can't help but to think, Di fakultas lain anak semester 8 nya kayak gini juga ga ya? :)

Anyway, I don't know about you guys, but I have a feeling that someday -and maybe soon enough- we're gonna miss those magic-tricking hard-playing concert-attending karaoke-ing days.

Yes I am quite certain that we're gonna miss it so bad.

Well, come what may, I will always love you, 2005.

"So baby let's get it on
Drinkin wine
and killing time
Sitting in the summer sun."

Jamiroquai - Seven Days In Sunny June

xoxo
TS

HJNTIY

2009-06-03T22:42:00.005-05:00

I seriously think every girl alive should read Dea's note about this book.
Or if you saw the book, buy it, read it, and then can I borrow it?
;P

oh and there's a movie based on it, too. Dapatkan di counter-counter DVD ~~bajakan~~ kesayangan anda. ;D

Regards,
TS

cin(T)a

2009-06-03T22:12:00.004-05:00

Two days ago Kak Opie & Kak Ria were ecstatic about a movie called cin(T)a.
I looked for it, and found this:

1:03 gives me the shivers.

"This is a story of a love triangle between
Cina (the boy), Annisa (the girl),
and Tuhan (God).

Cina and Annisa love God
and God loves them both
But Cina and Annisa cannot love each other
because they call God by different names"
godisadirector.com

Honestly, can't wait to watch it. :))

Mesmerized.

2009-06-03T19:52:00.008-05:00

19.35
Incoming call.
Halo?
Halo. Kamu dimana? Udah selesei les nya?
Udah, ini baruu aja keluar kelas. Knp?
Oh yaudah, cuma mau ngingetin, kamu pulangnya ati-ati yah.
Iyah, yauda ya.. Dadah..
Daah..

Yaelah. Gitu doang? Basa-basi dikit kek.. 'mau aku jemput ga?' atau apa kek.

Trying not to think of it, I shoved my phone into my bag and walked across the parking lot, towards the gate, whilst deciding what to take : a taxi, an angkot, or a walk? And as I took a step to cross the busy street, the wind delivered a shout of my name.

Tessa!

I couldn't believe my eyes. He was there, standing before me as I turned around.
Yuk, pulang. he said, grinning. Puas banget kayanya dia ngeliat tampang kaget gw.

Yeah I know it's corny for some people. Especially those of you who are not in love. But I can't help it, I have to share this feeling with someone otherwise I might explode. =))

And what is this feeling that I'm feeling?
It could be,
maybe,
might be something big.
Or not.
Either way,
it felt great.

Cheers,
TS

Everybody Loves Revenges.

2009-05-30T19:05:00.002-05:00

"I read this line somewhere : The best revenge is living well. Meaning, live your life successfully and that person whom you're having revenge on, is definitely losing.

I lived by that rule for a while.

But about a week ago, I realized that, to me, The Best Revenge Is Not Having One At All. I don't want to waste my time plotting, scheming, or just praying for the other person to fall apart. Berhasil membuat damai dirimu sendiri, that's what i call pure victory.

Hey you, I genuinely want you to be happy.
Yeah, you've guessed it, i think. "

Originally written on September 16th, 2008.

Love,
TS

Another Favorite Quote :)

2009-05-20T20:22:00.000-05:00

Sometimes the measure of friendship isn't your ability to not harm
but your capacity to forgive the things done to you and ask forgiveness for your own mistakes.
-Aswin Sastrowardoyo.

Hugs&kisses
TS

I love..

2009-05-18T05:25:00.009-05:00

1. her.

2. my new blue converse-shaped necklace. Actually, I'm in love with oversized necklaces in general. :D

3. the quote : Nothing Will Work Unless You Do, by Maya Angelou.

4. the latest, and of course another hilarious, nigahiga video.

5. this movie.

6. The walk we took this morning. It was my first time ever, walking to campus with.. well, a special someone. *blushing-like-mad mode: ON

7. Es Nyonya Besar, chocolate flavor. If you live in Semarang, you can find it in Gratia Minimarket near Karyadi Hospital. *yea yea promosi, siapa tau dapet diskon =P

8. reading about him

9. Francais. Oui, je vous manque. Can't wait for wednesday! ;)

10. Chika's Blog. Oh I simply love her.

11. Cactus! Me and my kostmates have 5 cactuses on our dining table. I'm thinking about giving them names. Any ideas? ;)

Have A Nice Week, everyone! ;D
TS

Melacur*

2009-05-06T09:49:00.006-05:00

"Remember the story of a girl who had everything
and still wanted everything else?
Yeah she end up having nothing."

Regards,
TS

*melakukan curhat
special thanx to mba tinton. ;)

Nineties Madness.

2009-04-30T19:48:00.005-05:00

Went karaoke-ing again with my friends last night. For the THIRD time in ONE week! *oh yeah kami banci tampil semua*
Anyway, lately I realized that we tend to sing a lot of 90s song. (For God's sake sometimes it made me feel kinda old. =P )
Here are some of those songs I'm referring to:

1. Barbie Girl - Aqua
2. Inikah Cinta - ME
3. ANY Backstreet Boys' song
4. Bukan Pujangga - Base Jam
5. ANY Spice Girls' song
6. Kerinduanku - AB three
7. ANY song by Westlife
8. Always be my baby - Mariah Carey
9. Mungkinkah - Stinky

And many, yes many many, more.

Come and sing a long! x)
Love,
TS

First Day in First Aid

2009-04-21T02:58:00.006-05:00

Monday, April 20th 2009
Kelas Pertolongan Pertama Pada Gawat Darurat.

Gw : *siap-siap mau ngasih pernafasan buatan*
Duta : eh Tes!
Gw : knp Dut?
Duta : Gapapa.... Jangan pake lidah ya!
Gw : yaiyalah emang apaan!!
Duta : Hahahaha...

Choose Carefully.

2009-04-09T10:16:00.013-05:00

Love this interactive youtube video thingy.
Yes, I've tried every possible ending. I'm such an Internet freak, aren't I? =P

Come to think of it.. What would it be if in real life, we could rewind and change our decision whenever we bump into a sad ending?

Well.. In my opinion it'd probably be a nice regret-less world to live in.

But a boring one, too.

We need risk of having regrets to make us appreciate every opportunities, don't you think? :)

Anyway try it! And good luck! ;D

TS

Capricorns and their Comfort Zones.

2009-04-08T02:40:00.006-05:00

I'm pretty sure there aren't any teenage girl in this whole wide world who has never read her horoscope in a magazine. Kalo gw sih, kalo bagus dipercaya, kalo ngga ya bodo amat. Hehehe.

Let see what Capricorns will encounter this month!

According to GoGirl! Magazine:

Ayo tambah teman sebanyak-banyaknya.
Well, I’ve been spending time with lots of long lost friends lately. I hope that counts. ;)

Tabungan meningkat!
Yea right. There’s a slight chance, but ’m a big spender, so.. *shrugs*

Bingung antara bertahan dengan comfort zone status kamu yang single atau harus berubah.
No comment. Hahahaha.

Perbanyak olahraga dan perhatikan ya apa yang kmu makan
Apa yang gw makan? Jamur, lekker, chicken cordon blue, bread talk, chocolate covered strawberries.. not exactly what you’d consider as healthy food, aren’t they? xP

A trip or a relationship with a foreigner will give you lots of benefits.
Hmm.. Had an interview with an EF teacher, Neil from Scotland, yesterday. Lots of benefits? Amin.

Hari baik : Rabu
..which is today! Yay!

Warna : Hijau muda.
Err this is weird. I’m wearing green this very moment.

Have a great long weekend!!! xD

Love,
TS

Triprolidine Never Tastes Better.

2009-03-31T07:08:00.012-05:00

I had it there, I had it then
thought it'd wait
thought it stayed
thought there's nothing else to mend

I was sure, no.. I had hope
Believed there's nothing it couldn't cope
Regrets? maybe a slight
But then, I won all the fights
so why bother?

We were snobs, promising forever
to each other
Oh how I wish that very word would stop linger

Asian Madness

2009-01-23T04:36:00.006-06:00

I'm currently in love with Asian tv dramas. Especially Japanese & Korean ones. But of all the dramas I've ever watched, nothing (not even the legendary Meteor Garden, Hero, Full House, or Princess Hours).. i repeat, nothing beats this one.

Click here if you're curious.
And yeah.. I've watched it for like ONE THOUSAND times already.. xP

Duluu yang beliin si Mamah, sempet bingung gitu dia waktu ngeliat covernya "Kamu mau beli dvd tentang Ice Hockey? Emang kmu ngerti??"
Hehe..
But Da recommended it to me, actually (ya, ya, trimakasih, Da..), dia kan dulu sok-sok gondrong Takuya Kimura wannabe gitu. Tapi lumayan ganteng deng (yaiyalah, pacarnya siapa dulu). Anyway skarang malah gw yang Kimutaku-dorama mania gini..

Udah ah, mau nonton lagi. ;D

Hugs,
TS

Overdose Happiness*

2009-01-10T02:43:00.005-06:00

My alarm woke me up at 1 AM this morning. I glanced at my cdma phone, expecting missed calls and messages.

1 message in Inbox.

what? only one? Percaya deh, gw sempet sedih. Masa pada ga inget sih.. then I realize, I had turned off my GSM phone all night. I reached for it, turned it on.. and voila!

1 Message.. 2 message.. and another one.. and another one... and another one.. well, u get the picture. ;)

Yes, it's my birthday today.

("You're finally legal to drink!", a friend of mine said. Hehe)

Da was the first one who called me. Wait, actually it was Metty, and a few others, who mistakenly congratulate me on the 7th. ;P

Anyway,
I feel awesome today! Super Duper Ultra Hyper Extra Awesome! And it's not even 4 o'clock yet. ;D

Reading those comments, message, sms.. answering those calls.. I feel like a little girl showered with gifts & flowers.
The perfect gift for me? Well I love prayers. They're more than enough for me. :)

I've been trying to reply each and every one of them but I have 2 exams and 1 wedding to attend today.. aaa so many things to do! hehehe. Jadi blom semuanya kebaless.. bahkan blom semuanya kebaca.. Haaa.. Maaf yah.. Promise to reply soon! :)

Okay, back to work.

Love,
TS

A gift from intan, mo dimakan sayang. =P

*I can't remember where I got this term. I stole it from somebody, probably him/her blog or something. If you're reading this, gw pinjem yah. ^^

WTF?!

2008-12-21T07:01:00.001-06:00

WTF?! no.1
Tadi gw nonton Reality Show Termehek-mehek.. Itu loh, yang sore-sore host nya Cici Panda.. I know, I know, most of Indonesian reality shows are kinda lame,, tapi lumayan lah,, buat bahan ketawaan bareng temen-temen. ;) Anyway, episode tadi itu ceritanya ada istri yang nyariin suaminya yang menghilang.. Gatau deh itu pada akting apa 'reality' beneran. Tapi tau ga sih, ujung-ujungnya nyambung ke perempuan lain, tagihan utang, ampe perdagangan organ segala. Busyet.

WTF?! no.2
Minggu lalu ada salah satu dosen kebidanan & kandungan lagi ngajar. Di tengah-tengah kuliah dia dapet telvon, trus mukanya langsung pucet gitu. "Bayinya pasien saya barusan meninggal.." katanya. Tau ngga meninggalnya kenapa? Si bayi lagi disusuin sama ibunya, trus si ibu ketiduran.. Bangun-bangun bayinya udah biru, ngga bisa napas karna kegencet payudara ibunya. Sumpah yaa... horor abis.

WTF?! no.3
Barusan diceritain Kak Odie *kayaknya dia baca di koran*.. Ada karyawan alfamart ngebunuh pacarnya karna pacarnya hamil. The craziest thing is, untuk nyembunyiin mayatnya di luar kota, si mas ini ngebonceng mayat pacarnya pake motor! Mayatnya diiket pake tali ke badan dia gitu selama perjalanan beberapa jam keluar kota Semarang. oh my God.

Kesimpulannya : I think we live in a sick, sick world.

Regards,
TS

Food Court Musicals

2008-12-15T05:01:00.006-06:00

I love musicals. Annie, Jesus Christ Superstar, Moulin Rouge, Sweeney Todd, Phantom of The Opera, just to name a few.

But this one is hilariously weird. True, the notes're not perfectly pitched.. but i think they're creative as hell. ImprovEverywhere rocks! Tinggal nunggu dijiplak ama tv Indonesia aja. hehe =P

Regards,
TS

The Girl in The Movie

2008-12-10T08:12:00.009-06:00

This conversation happened a few months ago.

Mas Odie : "Tes, kamu udah pernah nonton In the Land of Women blom?"
Gw : "Oh, filmnya Adam Brody ya? Blom nonton.. Bagus ngga Mas?"
Mas Odie : "Lumayan. Yang jadi cewenya di film itu mirip banget ama kamu lho Tes!!"
Gw : "Oyah? Pinjem dong, Mas, dvdnyaa...."

And so, out of curiosity, I watched the movie that night.
My reaction was, Heeeeh??? Apanya yang mirip ama gw?? Cewe rebel bermata sendu gitu??

Gw : "Mirip darimananya sih Mas??"
Mas Odie : "Mirip kok! Mukanya, gaya-gayanya, bungkuknya.."

Okay, I admit the bungkuk part was kinda true. But still! Ngga mirip ah!! Pokonya gw ngga terima....

Until now, about 6 months later, when I found out that the girl in the movie is currently the new Hollywood It Girl. Yup. She's Kristen Stewart from the most-anticipated movie this winter, Twilight.

So, yeah.. skarang gw ngga akan protes sih kalo disamain ama Mbak Bella Swan ini.. tapi tetep, gw ngga ngerasa mirip ah! =P

But I do wish I'm gonna be as successful as she is. Amiin. :)

Love,
TS

Yihaaa!

2008-11-28T09:43:00.002-06:00

YIHAAA.
Just got home from my first Saman rehearsal. Turns out I'm not as bad as I thought. Hehe. I'm pretty good, actually. Thank God my mom&dad gave me the fast-learner gene. ;)

But as you all probably know, I'm not actually a dancer. I usually suck at dancing! ahaha.

But I love art, any kinds of art! Especially the Saman dance.
And when it comes to performing on campus events.. well, let's just say I love being on the stage! *narsis mode always on. =P

Anyway, the best part of the Saman dance is..... singing those beautiful Aceh songs! Oh my. I'm in love with their language! I'm in love with every note! Sigh. :)

Oh, and I'll be choir-ing (is that even a word? ^^) too next week. What else what else? Oh right, my Research for the Final Assignment (a.k.a Karya Ilmiah).. Ooooh when I think about it my heart beats excitedly faster and faster and faster!! In a good way, of course. :)
And finally.. You know what, I spent a lot of money for my tickets to jakarta earlier this week.. But hey, it's the end of the month and I still manage to save almost 1/2 of my allowance this month! YIHAAA again.

Okay. Enough. I always get too excited when I have plenty of things on my to-do list. :D

Have A Nice Weekend!

Love,
TS

That Special Someone in My Heart.

2008-11-26T00:08:00.011-06:00

I miss him, day by day. It's like everywhere I go I saw him and his smilling face. Some people made efforts to make me laugh (^^thank you oh so much), some of them sat there silently and lend me their shoulder, some of them told me to let it go.

well, I haven't.
yet.
I probably never will.
I dunno.

This is worst than any break-ups. Hehehe. =P

I'm okay, though, I really am. I just think about him a lot.

About the way we used to live under the same roof 4 years ago. About our last conversation. About the way he inspired me in many many ways.

"If you have good intentions in your heart, nothing could ever harm you. So be a kind person, and be brave." he once said.

His name was dr. Sumarsono Sastrowardoyo, Sp.U.
(March 5th 1922 - November 23rd 2008)
click here for his facebook.

Until we meet again, Eyang Bapak. :)
xoxo

Love,
TS

Random.

2008-11-18T02:47:00.002-06:00

Today is one of the days when I thank God for my strangely awesome life.

yessh ladies and gentlemen,

despite the fact that I got laryngitis since last week,

i'm currently feeling blessed. :)) but i'm not gonna tell you why. =P

ANYWAY...

1. A few days ago, gw kuliah Bedah.. Dosennya charming!! But he's not the one I've told you about earlier.
*I guess I kinda have a thing for young Surgeons... It's probably the slight of arrogance in their eyes. Dunno*
Ternyata Erien juga mengganggap si dosen itu oke punya..... until this morning, when we learned that he already got two wives at home.
Il-feel mode: ON.
Oh well. ^^

2. If you ever plan on having a romantic dinner at Semarang, I recommend an all-you-can-eat restaurant called Uwos. Located at Gombel, the upper side of Semarang, it has the city light view and a very nice environment. *gila udah kayak ambassador nya uwos aja gw* x)

3. I finally watch this! Love it. *sial gw pake nangis segala* hey kmu, terimakasih yah!

4. KI. KI. KI is stuck in my head. But I'm excited, honestly. :)

5. Tadi ada polling angkatan, and I'm surprised by the fact that there are 2 people who voted me 'terjorok'. hahaha. Those 2 votes came from 2 of my bestfriends, who obviously been into my messy messy room and knew that I only shower 1 time a day. Hehehe.

6. Oh, and I also recommend Nasi Kuning, Pastel Macaroni, and Jus Mangga at RS Karyadi's Emergency Room. Seriously, they're the best. Sluurps.

Nighty Night!

Hugs,
TS

Hush!

2008-11-09T02:25:00.007-06:00

This is kinda embarrassing.
I can't believe he uploaded this video.
(no, boys, it's not a sex tape. =P)

Seriously. I'd do a re-take if I had known he'd upload it!

silakan tertawa, dihina, dilempar tomat, apapun lah, i want honest opinions. hahaha.

TS

Things Worth Mentioning.

2008-10-29T07:08:00.005-05:00

Lagi baca ini.

Lagi nyanyinyanyi lagu ini mulu (maaf ya tementemen kosan, ada polusi suara =P).

Therefore gw lagi terkagum-kagum sama mbak jenius yang satu ini.

"Lagi suka lagu itu ya? Hayooo.. Jangan-jangan itu curhatan kamu ya Tes?"

"Hmm.. Ngga lah, gw kan cemerlang & rupawan."

"....."

=P

Love,
TS

the dr.Charming Story

2008-10-20T02:40:00.005-05:00

Gw abis dari dokter.
Ralat.
Gw abis dari dokter yang nyenengin banget.
Cowo, masih muda, trus charming gitu. Ahahay.

Pertama-tama dia nanya ada apa, trus gw jawab ada benjolan di dahi gw, "Kirain jerawat, tapi kok.. bukan kayak jerawat...."
Dr.Charming senyum, "Trus kayak apa?" katanya.
Ya mana gw tau.
"Hmm.. Ga tau.. " kata gw pasrah.
Dia megang-megang dahi gw. "Oooh.. ini sih atherom."
Gw membeo, "Atherom?"
"Kamu kuliahnya apa? Kedokteran kan?"
ih kok tau.
"Iyah" kata gw.
Lalu dia cerita panjang lebar soal atherom, ampe digambar segala. Singkatnya benjolan itu terbentuk dari keringet dan minyak yang nyampur di bawah kulit gw. Gw nanya-nanya, dia jawab-jawab. Dia megang-megang lagi (catet, dahi, bukan yang laen). Trus cerita lagi.
"Tapi," kata gw, "Ini bukan.. neoplasma, atau apa gitu kan?"
Gw mulai takut si dr.Charming bete karna gw nanya-nanya mulu,
but instead, dia malah nyengir jahil, trus balik nanya,"Coba, emang neoplasma itu apa?"
Gw menjawab seperti yang gw tau.
Masih nyengir jahil, dr.Charming nanya lagi, "Kalo tumor?"
Gw menjawab seperti yang gw tau.
Buset. Ujian oncology ni ceritanya. =P

Anyway, intinya menurut dia, 90% it's an atherom.
Gw pulang dengan hati tenang.
At least bukan yang aneh-aneh lah. Dan at least bukan jerawat juga, masa udah mahal-mahal ke dokter spesialis obatnya Veril antiAcne? =P

God. Someday, gw mau jadi dokter yang charming juga ah. :)

Regards,
TS

Thank You For The Music

2008-10-15T05:58:00.006-05:00

This is
Lama Kunanti
by
Dr. Bram's Project feat. Matthew Sayersz

Uncle Bram's one of my dad's good friends, and the lyrics were made by Auntie Nondy, my Mom's youngest sister.. so yeah, the first time we heard the song on the radio we went "ohmyGod-ohmyGod turn the volume up!!!" =P

also currently stuck in my head:
Thank You For The Music by Amanda Seyfried
and (still) Sahabat Kecil by Ipang.

Love,
TS

Quick Report

2008-10-12T08:43:00.003-05:00

Regards,
TS

A Propensity for Insanity

2008-09-27T19:57:00.002-05:00

Do you have any mental disorder?

No?

Are you sure?
;)

Because I always think I'm pretty sane... until I went to dr. Fitri's psychiatry class last week.

Personality disorder (gangguan kepribadian) is classified into 12 basic types. (note : It is possible for someone to have more than one type)

1. Paranoid
suka curiga, gampang tersinggung, sering bersikap memusuhi
2. Skizoid
suka melakukan segalanya sendiri, gangguan berinteraksi, ekspresi datar, menutup diri, tidak ingin terlibat dengan masalah orang lain
3. Skizoipal
aneh & asing, punya keyakinan2 aneh, suka hal-hal magis & mistis
4. Ambang
mood ngga stabil, emosi naik turun
5. Antisosial
susah mematuhi norma sosial (misalnya suka bohong, bolos, bertengkar..)
6. Narsistik
merasa dirinya selalu paling bagus, sombong, tidak empati, merasa iri atau merasa orang lain iri padanya
7. Histerionik
sering mendramatisasi, cari perhatian
8. Obsesive Kompulsive
perfeksionis, setia sama pekerjaannya, mengabaikan waktu luang, berhati-hati & teliti berlebihan, tidak bisa meninggalkan satu tugas demi tugas lain
9. Menghindar
ingin berteman tapi malu, sering takut ditolak/dikritik/dicela/dipermalukan
10. Dependen / Astenik
ga bisa mandiri, menghindari tanggung jawab
11. Pasive Agresive
ga percaya diri, pesimis, tapi situasi tertentu bisa jadi agresif
12. Explosive
bertindak kekerasan tanpa sebab, lalu diikuti penyesalan

I kept on thinking "Oh man, yang itu kayaknya gw banget deh!" during the lesson. And then Adit, who sat next to me whispered, "Duh, Tes, kok gangguan kepribadianku banyak ya?" and then almost all of my friends were saying the same thing about themselves. Asiik. At least gw ngga gila sendirian. hehe.

Regards,
TS

The Snooze Button

2008-09-16T19:25:00.003-05:00

Okay.

I skipped class today.

Yahaha.This is the second time on this semester. Hari yang sama. Mata kuliah yang sama. Alasan yang sama : telat bangun. hehehe. Adzan Subuh was on 4.15, it took me about 10 minutes to do the Subuh prayer and curl beneath my blanket again.
As always, my cell phone alarm went on at 5.45. I pressed the snooze button, of course. big mistake. now it's 7.28 and i'm still on my bed. :P

The class starts at 7, tapi dari dulu emang gw paling ngga suka dateng telat. Soalnya kalo awal kuliahnya ngga denger, pasti lebih susah untuk ngerti the rest of the lesson. Not to mention dapet duduk paling belakang dan butuh akomodasi mata maksimal untuk ngeliat slide dosennya. Mending ngga masuk sekalian. Puter rekaman suara dosen, pasang slide show, trus kuliah sendiri di kamar. God I love technology. :)

Have a nice day!

TS

Aishiatte.

2008-09-14T04:15:00.011-05:00

Ada yang tau film Jepang berjudul Be With You?

Gw blum pernah nonton, tapi katanya sih, saking bagusnya, Warner Bros mau bikin remake nya tahun depan, starring Jennifer Garner as one of the main character.

Kalo ada yang punya filmnya, gw pinjem dooong. x)

Diputer di Celestial Channel sih, cuma sayang di kosan gw ga ada. Nyari di Internet, and all I got was it's soundtrack. Lumayan sih. :)

This is Hana by Orange Range. Enjoy!

Gara-gara kmaren Da ngomongin film ini terus, gw jadi penasaran mampus. Tanggung jawab kamu, cariin aku DVD nya! hahaha.

Regards,
TS

Hate Is Easy, Love Is Courage*

2008-09-14T02:12:00.010-05:00

I LOVE HER
Namanya Ika Natassa, dan dia udah nerbitin 2 buku : A Very Yuppy Wedding dan Divortiare.

Asli, Divortiare bagus banget. Ceritanya tentang Alexandra, a 29 years old workaholic yang successful, living a fabulous life tapi udah jadi janda. Sejak cerai 2 tahun yang lalu, dia jadi percaya bahwa kita cuma bisa disakitin sama orang yang kita sayang, jadi Alexandra memilih untuk menutup hatinya. Selanjutnya? Baca sendiri ya. Pokonya baca buku ini kayak naik rollercoaster : seru, ga pengen berhenti, sesaat bikin ketawa, sesaat bikin terharu, dan ending nya pol banget.

Buku yang satu lagi A Very Yuppy Wedding, baru gw baca kmaren. Si Melon merekomendasikan buku ini ke gw dan ternyata bagus! Menurut gw AVYW lebih romantis dan kadar mengharukannya lebih banyak.

Sekilas gaya berceritanya mirip Confessions of a Shopaholic. So if u love Sophie Kinsella (like moi), you'll love Ika Natassa . ;)

Love,
TS

*taken from Ika Natassa's Divortiare.

"Mama, dari mana datangnya bayi?"

2008-09-13T13:09:00.004-05:00

Kalo anak gw ntar nanya kayak gitu, gw akan jawab,

"Dari ovum dan sperma, sayang.
Begini ceritanya,

kalo kata dr. Besari, Sp.OG..

setiap bulan ovum (sel telur) berjalan keluar dari ovarium, menuju ke tuba Fallopii. Ngapain dia di situ? Dia menunggu pangerannya, si sperma. Jangan salah, ovum ini cantik banget loh, buktinya ada ratusan ribu sperma yang berlomba-lomba untuk nyampe duluan ke tuba Fallopii untuk mempersunting ovum.

Pertemuan ovum dan the lucky sperma di Tuba ini namanya konsepsi (itulah kenapa alat yang dipake untuk mencegah pertemuan ovum & sperma tuh namanya kontra-sepsi, Nak.) Nah, ovum & sperma ini jadi satu zigot. Setelah terjadi konsepsi, zigot ini akan jalan (dibantu oleh bulu-bulu cilia milik tuba) ke dinding rahim (nama kerennya Uterus), menempel dan selanjutnya tumbuh di situ. Rahim ikut bertambah besar seiring pertumbuhan si janin.

Gimana kalo zigot ngga berhasil sampai ke dinding rahim, malah menetap di tuba? Itulah yang namanya hamil di luar kandungan. Karna tuba -ga seperti rahim- tidak diciptakan untuk menampung janin, maka suatu hari dia bisa sobek kalo ada janin di situ. Terjadilah perdarahan di dalem panggul.

Hati-hati ya, buat cewe-cewe, jangan suka pijet-pijet perut sembarangan. apalagi dipukul-pukul. Karna itu ngaruh, bisa ngerusak cilia yang ada di tuba, atau bahkan tuba nya kepeluntir. Akibatnya ya bisa itu tadi. Serem yah.

Yak lanjut. Kalo orang hamil yang normal, pada 3 bulan pertama, rahim bakal membesar di panggul dan mendesak kandung kemih yang berada tepat di depannya! Itulah kenapa orang hamil trimester pertama sering pengen pipis mulu. Bisa sampe 3x per 1-2 jam.
Setelah itu, 3 bulan berikutnya, rahim bakal membesar ke arah perut, jadi ngga mendesak kandung kemih lagi. Pipisnya normal pas trimester kedua.
Nah, baru deh, pas 3 bulan terakhir, rahim makin besar dan besar dan besar, sampe ada bagian yang mendesak lagi, jadi pengen pipis terus lagi deh.

Terus, selain mendesak ke depan, rahim juga kadang mendesak ke belakang, alias ke arah usus besar. Akibatnya, ibu hamil jadi 'rasa-rasanya-pengen-pup-tapi-ngga-ada-isinya' gitu. Makanya si ibu hamil harus mobile, banyak gerak, supaya posisi rahimnya ngga terus-terusan neken usus besar.

Tentang Berat Badan.

Again, menurut dr. Besari, Sp.OG sepupunya Manda (hehe, iseng Mand, bawa2 nama lo ^^),
BB ibu hamil ga boleh naik lebih dari 2 kg/bulan.
BB ibu hamil ga boleh naik lebih dari 22 kg/ 128 hari
dan selama hamil, BB nya harus naik minimal 8kg.

Itulah, Nak, sekilas tentang darimana datangnya bayi." :)

Regards,
TS

Ca.

2008-09-13T11:05:00.005-05:00

Salah satu pertanyaan yang paling sering gw denger dari temen-temen di luar fakultas gw adalah, "Sebenernya Tumor tuh apa sih Tes?"

Well, jujur aja, gw pun baru bener-bener ngerti yang dimaksud tumor, kanker dst itu pas semester 4. Dodol yah. hehe.

Anyway, kuliah Ilmu Bedah beberapa hari yang lalu memaksa gw mere-call pengetahuan2 tentang kanker (bahasa kerennya oncology) jaman setaun yang lalu itu.

Tumor. Secara kamus, artinya pembesaran. Jadi sebenernya kalo kepala gw kejedot pintu trus bengkak, itu juga namanya tumor. Tapi di masyarakat, istilah tumor sering langsung disambungin sama keganasan.

Padahal nama aslinya adalah Neoplasia. Neo = baru. Plasia = mall. (eh itu mah plaza yah. hehe garing.) ngga deng, plasia = pertumbuhan (ndak yoo? agak sotoy). Jadi neoplasia itu pertumbuhan sel sel baru, yang sifatnya berlebihan dan ngga terkendali. Kalo kamu pernah denger istilah 'ada daging tumbuh', itulah si neoplasma.

Kenapa bisa gitu? Well, normally, di dalam sel-sel kita itu ada gen, yang fungsinya untuk ngatur-ngatur. Ibaratnya gen ini tuh Bos nya lah. Kalo dia bilang bikin, ya bikin. Kalo dia bilang stop, ya stop. Normally lagi, gen yang nyuruh 'bikin' dan 'stop' ini, kerjanya seimbang.

Gmana kalo ga normal? Ya jadi berlebihan : sel-sel tubuh jadi diperintah sama si gen untuk bikin, bikin, bikin dan bikin lagi sel -sel baru. Sel-sel baru yang sebenernya ga diperluin ini, bisa mendesak sel-sel yang sehat, jadinya sel yang sehat ga bisa kerja dengan baik. Sel yang baru juga bisa pindah ke organ lain (nama kerennya metastasis). Biasanya yang bisa metastasis itu neoplasma yang ganas.

Oyah lupa bilang, neoplasma dibagi jadi 2 : jinak dan ganas. Bedanya apa? Kalo jinak, dia biasanya punya kapsul, jadi tumbuhnya expansif, lebih gampang diambil pas pembedahan. Karna lebih gampang diambil, jadi yang jinak lebih jarang kambuh. Yang jinak juga jarang metastasis.

Kalo ganas, biasanya ga punya kapsul, jadi tumbuhnya infiltratif (dia tumbuh di sela-sela sel-sel yang sehat), akibatnya lebih susah diambil, akibatnya kadang ada yang tersisa dan bikin kambuh.
Kalo yang gw tangkep sih, istilah 'kanker' yang dipake secara umum skarang tuh maksudnya neoplasma yang ganas itu.

Dr. Benny Issakh, Sp.B.Onk bercerita...

Sampe sekarang blum ada yang tau pastinya penyebab kanker (makanya blom ada obatnya). Oke, penyebabnya adalah gen yang berubah, tapi apa yang bikin dia berubah?

Yang baru kita tahu adalah faktor-faktor pencetus :
Biologik (misal virus Human Papilloma bisa bikin kanker leher rahim), Fisik (sinar UV, sinar X), Hormonal, Genetik, Iritasi yang kronis (misal merokok bertahun-tahun), dll...

intinya sih itu semua bisa membantu perubahan gen. Disebut zat-zat karsinogenik.

Jadi, untuk menghindari kanker, kita mesti menghindari faktor-faktor itu. Okay? :)

Maap kalo kurang lengkap, ngantuk gw. hehe.

Regards,
TS

2008-09-07T09:39:00.002-05:00

I've packed already.
A suit case full of memories.

Just need to shut it close.
For good.
For better or for worse.

But I'm waiting
For the right time,

the right day,
to throw it all away

Gigiku sayang, gigiku malang..

2008-09-04T10:16:00.005-05:00

Bermasalah dengan gigi kuning?

SAMA DONG.
hehe.

Makanya tadi gw semangat banget pas kuliah pertama Ilmu Kesehatan Gigi & Mulut,

Kata drg. Santi..

Ada bagian gigi yang namanya Enamel, Dentin, dan Rongga Pulpa.

Enamel, bagian paling luar, tuh sebenernya ga berwarna, transluscent. Sementara si Dentin warna nya kuning, dan Rongga Pulpa warnanya kebiruan. Waktu masih kecil, rongga pulpa ini luas, sedangkan pas udah gede menyempit karna Dentin nya bertambah.

Makanya anak kecil warna giginya putih kebiruan! (emang iya? coba dicek di gigi adek-adeknya yaa)

Berarti... Semakin tipis Enamel, semakin kuning gigi kita!

Trus, kata Bu santi lagi, Enamel tuh gampang larut dalem asam. Jadii.. jangan suka kemakan iklan ya (kayak gw)! Kalo ada produk-produk pemutih gigi gitu, coba dicek kadar asamnya.

Yak lanjut lagi. Sebenernya gigi kuning tuh ada 2 faktor ; internal dan external.
Kalo faktornya external, misal karna rokok, teh, kopi atau makanan tertentu, ya masih bisa jadi putih.
Tapi kalo internal, alias bawaan orok, ya mau diapain juga ga bisa putih.

Kalo kata Bu Santi, "Sama aja kayak kalian yang kulitnya item sama yang kulitnya putih. Kalo emang aslinya item, mau mandi susu ampe kapan juga ngga akan jadi putih!"

Yaah. Jadi gmana dong Bu? "Kalo mau," kata Bu Santi. "Cat item aja muka kamu biar giginya keliatan putih."

Gubrak.

Tentang si Gigi Geraham Bungsu

Si bungsu yang nama lainnya Molar 3 (geraham ke 3) ini, bakal tumbuh pas umur kita 17 tahun ke atas. Biasanya pas mau tumbuh gusi nya gatel-gatel (katanya. Gw sih belum pernah.. hehe)

Ada ceritanya nih..
Kata Bu Santi,
Jamannya Pithecantrophus erectus dulu, gigi geraham manusia tuh ada 16.
Trus, jaman nenek buyut kita, gigi geraham manusia berkurang jadi 12.
Nah, jamannya si ibu Santi, udah mulai banyak gigi geraham bungsu yang ngga mau turun (nama kerennya impaksi. Biasanya di-operasi trus giginya diambil)
Jaman kita.. lebih banyak lagi kasus impaksi.
Jadi mungkin, jaman anak cucu nya cicit buyut kita, manusia berevolusi menjadi cuma bergigi 2.

Ngga deng. Lebay parah ya, hahaha..

Kenapa bisa gitu? Biasanya sih karna rahang nya terlalu sempit. Rahang bisa terlalu sempit, terutama kalo dari kecil kita jarang ngunyah. Makanya kalo makan dikunyah dulu, hal kecil kayak gini ngaruh loh, because we're part of the evolution! ;)

Oyah 1 lagi, konon katanya, plak di gigi tuh mulai terbentuk 10 menit setelah makan lho!

NEXT EPISODE : Karies & Pencegahannya, dan CARA MEMILIH PASTA GIGI YANG BAIK. Yihaaa. Can't wait! :D

Regards,
TS

2008-09-04T09:31:00.001-05:00

It's raining, so I guess summer's finally over.
It's been the gloomiest one, honestly.
So just pour some rain on me and I'll be okay.
:)

Puasa Ga Puasa, Tetep Aja...

2008-09-03T11:57:00.004-05:00

Kuliah pertama Ilmu Kebidanan & Kandungan..

dosen gw : "yak.. ini saya punya soal.. silakan diliat.."

Kita semua ngeliat ke slide dia daan..

BERIKUT ADALAH POSISI LITHOTOMI :

A. [foto cewek pake bikini dengan posisi super menantang]
B. [foto cewek pake bikini dengan posisi hyper menantang]
C. [foto cewek pake bikini dengan posisi ultra menantang]
D. [foto cewek pake bikini dengan posisi mega menantang]
E. Bukan salah satu di atas.

Astaghfirullah.

xD
LOL.

Kuliah pertama Ilmu Forensik..

dosen gw : "Saya punya pertanyaan, kalo misalnya kamu (nunjuk temen gw yang cowo)... diperkosa Luna Maya, apa yang akan kamu lakukan?

1. Lapor polisi
2. Istighfar
3. Istighfar sambil menikmati
4. Minta lagi
"
believe it or not, temen gw itu milih nomer 1. hahaha. Si dosen nunjuk 2 orang lain, yang dengan jujur menjawab nomer 3 dan 4. lucunya cowo-cowo yang ditunjuk itu termasuk yang terkenal alim-alim gitu. hehe.

honestly skarang gw lupa inti pertanyaan itu apa, dan apa hubungannya dengan ilmu forensik. xP

Regards,
TS

haiyaah.. i've been tagged xP

2008-09-02T08:33:00.005-05:00

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
the people i love

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
buku Interna. Langsung abis gaji gw! hahah.

3) Where do you wish to get married?
on a beach with the sunset. on the rooftop of a building. on a boat with the stars above. i dunno. can't decide, really.

4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
err..

5) Are you in love?
yes? no? maybe. ;)

6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
a Thai restaurant called... Jitlada? well i honestly dunno how to spell it. hihi

7) Name the latest book that you bought?
read no.2

8) What is your full name?
Tessa H. A Sastrowardoyo

9) Do you prefer your mother or father?
yikes. stupid question.

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
Queen Rania of Jordan.

11) Christina or Britney?
can i have Mariah instead?

12) Do you do your own laundry?
my undies only.

13) The most exciting place you want to go?
NYC.

14) Hugs or kisses?
both, please. :)

15)8 things I am passionate about:
a) Him
b) music
c) medical things
d) French
e) singing
f) movies
g) novels
h) photography

16)8 things I say too often:
a) oMyGod!
b) hahahahaha....
c) serius?
d) yauda...
e) makasih yaa :)
f) hmmmm...
g) eh tau ga sih..
h) eww

17)8 books I've read recently:
a) Laskar Pelangi
b) La Tahzan
c) Seventeen Magazine
d) Buku kuliah Mata
e) My diary
f) The Knockout Makers
g) Koran SinDo
h) the Holy Qur'an *gaya dikit boleh dong. haha*

18)8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
waa... i have THOUSANDs of favourite songs! xP

19)8 things I learned last year:
a) the best things in life are freakin free!
b) with great power comes great responsibility.
c) seneng-seneng mulu + ga blajar = E. seriously i learned my lesson.
d) i am never alone. never was, never will be.
e) start NOW.
f) oh my. he really loves me.
g) what goes around comes around eventually. seriously.
h) i don't believe in marriage.

20) Tag 8 people :
a) Kak Surya
b) Kak Kamil
c) Kak Huda
d) Lita
e) Oche
f) Erien
g) Gitta
h) Vivien

countdown to September.

2008-08-31T09:35:00.005-05:00

I'm currently listening to this Japanese band called Depapepe. Their songs are simply beautiful.

And these are the movies that I've watched these past few days :
1. Vantage Point (so-so. but worth watching)
2. Kung Fu Panda (entertaining enough.. hihi)
3. Definitely. Maybe (yeah.. i start watching romantic comedies again =P this one's good, though. i love the twisted story, and u could never resist Abigail Breslin's smile =) )
4. The Other Boleyn Girl (bagus! gw jarang suka a-long-long-time-ago-in-England kind of movie, but this one's powerful.)
5. How I Met Your Mother season 2 (okay, it's a tv series actually. Lucu. Mirip-mirip friends gitu sih, nontonnya bikin ketagihan.. must. buy. season 3.)
6. The Simple Life season 5 (laugh all u want, i don't care. i always love N&P =) )
7. Fool's Gold (abis nonton Definitely, Maybe, duo Hudson-McConaughey ini jadi ga ada apa-apanya.. hehe)
8. Star Wars (yaaah jangan dibandingin sama yang bukan kartun deh ya.. )

By the way, I can't wait for September to start! First of all, it's the beginning of my 7th semester! I miss my friends, I miss rebutan duduk paling depan pas di kelas (u heard me right : entah knapa sejak smester lalu, angkatan gw smangat blajarnya menggila), I miss my seniors, my juniors, everybody! tomorrow's the first day and I'm pretty excited x)
Reason no.2, gw (dan 29 orang teman-teman gw yang lain, i guess) udah nungguin majalah Seventeen Indonesia bulan ini. hehe.
and last but not least.. it's Ramadhan.

Happy fasting.

Love,
TS

The End of The Fairy Tale

2008-08-04T09:16:00.006-05:00

Yes, dear friends, we have ended our almost 4 years relationship.

Once upon a day,
we spent the day laughing, talking, kissing, reading comic books and eating ice creams… and then, that peculiar night, something hit us. Kayak kesamber petir di siang bolong : Bikin bengong, kaget, dan.. yeah well, sakit bo! Hehehe.

How can you be 100% sure when you’re throwing away your dreams and plans? You can’t. I wasn’t sure and it wasn't easy, but honestly I know it is what I need.

It took us hours of talks and days of thinking until we finally end it. In the end, kita mengobrol dan tertawa dan bakal tetep ngejaga hubungan baik. And it felt pretty good.

During those days, I talked to my parent and best friends. As always, they’re very supportive. I love you guys! Trimakasih udah jungkir balik ngedengerin, nyaranin macem2, berusaha bikin aku ketawa, dan bikin aku mau makan! Hahaha.
(Sthie, gw beneran beli tuh es krim 1 liter!! Haha)
(Bapak, thank you for cheering me up by lending me Mom's ATM card.. hehehe)

i love You (You know who You are)… thank You, for listening.

And for you… aku sayang sama kamu, Yudavedito. Thank u for loving me, protecting me, wanting me, missing me, waiting for me… and most of the time bikin aku ngerasa jadi cewe paling happy sedunia *lebay, hahaha. Ngga deng, beneran kok. :) Ngga nyangka ya, ending nya begini? Ya, kalo dari dulu udah tau endingnya, film nya ga seru lagi dong! Hehehe.

Until we meet again,
TS

And they both,
live happily ever after.. :)

never mind.

2008-08-01T05:40:00.002-05:00

Listening to : Violet Hill - Coldplay
Eating : nothing
Wearing : cropped jeans and messy hair

Could somebody show me the way to Peter Pan's NeverLand?
You know, the place where we can swim and laugh and run around and play and dance and kiss and sing and fly all day long. No worries. Just pure childhood happiness.
The place where there's no growing up.
Argh. Why do we have to grow up anyway?

damn it,
growing up is not a choice
it's an obligation.
People will eventually expect us to grow up,
even if we choose not to.

Watch the skies tonight,
let's fly to the second star to the right!

you broke my plans, but i still got wings.

Regards,
TS

Cace thinks, in times like these, I shouldn't be alone in my room.
Sigh. She's right.

Why So Serious?

2008-07-31T00:47:00.004-05:00

Biasalah. Lagi terobsesi sama film Batman : The Dark Night yang oke punya itu.
i give 4,67 out of 5 stars.

Dua setengah jam kali 2 (karna gw ampe nonton 2x, hihi ) yang sangat sangat worth it.
Kalo diajak nonton lagi mau deh gw. Bayarin tapi. hahaha.

Regards,
TS

simple signs that u miss someone.

2008-07-29T10:27:00.013-05:00

1. you browse your iphoto, and you smile silently while scrolling through pictures of him.
2. you listened to your itunes playlist, and everything, every goddamn song, reminds you of him.
3. it's 11.12 PM, you close your eyes, trying to get some sleep, and voila! there he is, smiling right at you.
4. confused by this feeling, you text him. He replied right away, which makes your heart beats a bit faster.
5. and yet, you still can't go to sleep.
6. so you decided to write on your blog. and you can't think of anything else to write about, except this feeling that you currently feel.

and to you, it felt really really weird, because it's only been like, 25 hours since the last time you saw him..

sigh.

SGDO '08

2008-07-22T00:01:00.001-05:00

Daftar luka, lecet, bengkak dan bocel yang gw dapet selama 4 hari :

- Kaki kanan : 1
- Lutut kanan : 3
- Lutut kiri : 2
- Siku kanan : 1
- Siku kiri : 1
- Dagu : 1
(sebenernya gw liburan apa jadi tkw sih? ^^)

Daftar hal-hal yang blom pernah gw cobain sebelumnya:

1. SURFING (aaaah pengen lagiiii!!)
2. Kejar2an di pantai rebutan bola ga penting
3. Parasailing (aaaah pengen lagi jugaa!)
4. Beli spatu Crocs.. gratis sih.
5. Digodain abang-abang Padma street. Eww
6. Nge-make over baju ampe jam 12 malem
7. Blanja menggila ngabisin voucher SurferGirl (well ngga segila erien sih, secara dia dapet Best Shopper Award gitu ;) )
8. Sholat di Pura
9. Naek Boomerang nya Waterbom Bali.
10. Pipis rame-rame di laut
11. Warung Bandung nyamm.
12. Baru tau ternyata Warung Made tu baca E nya kayak baca karE, bukan kayak elang.
13. Konsultasi gigi.. di Jimbaran (nah loh)
14. Makan Cordon Bleu nya Solaria Ngurah Rai.
15. Turtle Island
16. Kalap di Ud. Erlangga
17. Nonton Kecak di Pura Uluwatu.. berlatar sunset. Bikin speechless.
18. Baliwis Spa…
19. Lari-lari rebutan kursi.. di pesawat.

So how’s ur weekend? ☺

Crazy Calories

2008-07-05T06:11:00.005-05:00

Bodo amat ah.

it's 5.30 pm.. blom waktunya dinner, tapi gw udah makan. Coba tebak makan apa aja? Well, sodara-sodara sekalian..... gw menghabiskan LIMA potong chicken nugget, semangkok sayur sop, nasi DUA piring dan minum susu!! Udah gitu seperti biasa, nasinya pake mentega (buttered rice is my favorite dish). Padahal tadi pagi sarapan banyak, siang juga udah makan.

Dapet salam dari lemak di pantat.

Love,
TS

cinta ya memiliki! *bingung nentuin judul. pinjem ya Dan. ^^

2008-06-30T20:43:00.008-05:00

Jarang-jarang nih (atau malah ga pernah) gw ngepost yang begini-begini. Begini-begini apa coba.

Berikut adalah kata-kata dari teman menyanyi gw, si Irdan.

"... cinta = memiliki
Apa ada cinta yang tidak harus memiliki?
Bwat aku,,cinta ya memiliki..
Lalu yg tidak harus memiliki?
Ya brarti itu bukan cinta.Mungkin cuma "suka".."

"....Jatuh cinta itu jauh lebih mudah daripada mempertahankan swatu hubungan.."

"...Hidup adalah swatu pilihan.
Pilihan kamu??
Memilih untuk terus mencari yang lebih baik..
Atau
tetap setia.. "

-Irdania Putri Aulia-

Hihi.. Dari dulu kalo ngomongin hal-hal kayak gini, emang Irdan jagonya. Kita sama-sama long distance, jadi sering nyambung kalo ngegossipin pacar masing-masing (hehe, jadi malu).

Sometimes kita se-pemikiran (contoh, quotes di atas itu), sometimes she knows and gets me, but there are times dia bikin gw keselek opor ayam dengan pertanyaan "Trus? Tessa mau nikah kapan?". aaaaah tidaaak, pertanyaan kayak gitu bikin gw merinding dangdut. hiii. "Masa ngga pernah kepikiran nikah Tes?" Ampuun, Irdaan, ampun.
hehehe.
Begitulah Irdan, si vokalis cantik asal purwokerto. Jadi kangen ngobrol ama kamu, Dan. :)

Jadi bagusnya gmana nih?
Nyari yang lebih baik?
atau tetap setia?
hahah =P

TS

updates.

2008-06-29T04:01:00.003-05:00

1. menjelang ujian malah nge blog. ah biarin ah.

2. kayak udah lama ga ngeliat mall.

3. kmaren dapet kado ulangtaun. hehe. (di angkatan gw, emang kado selalu telat) A green yongki komaladi flat shoes. mreka tau banget selera gw. hihi. can't wait to wear it x) makasi ya semuanyaa.

4. kalo dipikir2, taun ini juga dapet a brown kimmy shoe dari anak2 78.. asiik punya banyak sepatu.. makasi ya teman2.

5. banyak ujian banyak makan. biarin perut buncit yang penting otak dapet nutrisi. ya ga? ;)

6. hari jumat kmaren abis dateng ke 'pesta terbesar abad ini'. hehe. makasi ya Che, Tri, Wends.. kadonya nyusul ya. haha.

7. "Resepnya? pake susuk."

8. udah ah. blajar, blajar.

Regards,
TS

Hey Hey Siapa Dia?

2008-06-25T08:04:00.004-05:00

Orang yang aksi ‘maju tak gentar jatuh bangun aku mengejarmu’ -nya berhasil meruntuhkan pertahanan gw sampe akhirnya gw nyerah, dan turun dari tahta kejombloan jaya pada tahun 2004.

Orang yang ngehormatin orangtua gw, termasuk jam malem yang mereka kasih. Orang yang suka nanyain kabar kakak adek gw. dan sepupu gw (yang cantik). Hehe. Orang yang udah sering bikin gw ketawa, senyum-senyum sendiri, bt-krn-kgn, blushing, dan jadi menghayati film komedi romantis.

Orang yang udah 3 taun lebih looking after me and all the details about me. Nganterin pulang, jemput les, nutupin retsleting tas, nyariin jam tangan yang ilang di mesjid, menemukan jenggot, nasehatin, marahin, ngajarin, nyontekin, nraktir, nyamperin ke kelas, bawain bunga, nyanyiin lagu, ngambilin teh botol, nungguin latian band, ngetawain, ngegodain, muji, nungguin berbulan-bulan, nelvonin, smsin, ym-in, skype-in, nelvonin lagi, nanyain kabar, khawatirin, ngebangunin, nelvonin lagii, ngegombalin, nyatain, ngejemput di airport, ngeliatin, nyemangatin, nemenin, nge-imam-in, ngedengerin, memfoto diem-diem, nenangin, nyenengin, dan seterusnya dan sebagainya.

quote:
"Blog kmu kok ngga pernah ngebahas aku sih?"
- SiapaHayo?

tu, udah dibahas ya.

Peace, Love n Gaul =P

TS